Well, it's Monday. I hope everyone had a great Easter Sunday.
The moon sits pretty high up in the sky, behind chimes. The stars are visible, and the sky is so very bright, from this moon.
The moon I am speaking of is hiding behind many clouds in the air. They look like thin clouds, overlapping one another, sailing around up there.
Then there is the moon, dead center, behind it all. Lighting up the clouds which cover it, making them beautiful as well. Making their light color also brighten up the sky.
It is March 24, today is my sisters birthday. The sister that I just got home from her house. I think she is 52 today, maybe 51. I got her a card, her daughter and I. One of the musical ones... heehee
"Shes a BRICK HOUSE!" Oh we had so much fun singing and dancing with that card yesterday. Laughing. Who ever knew a little greeting card could hold so much fun? I don't know, but we do now! LOL
It was a good time there, interesting at times... just watching certain people. Listening. I have a huge smile on my face right now. I am in such a happy place. I love being in this place. Just as it is. I would not even change a single thing.
To be so happy.... is such a wonderful feeling. One that I have not ever had in this life of living. Right now... this is how I always want to feel. Oh, I am sure it can get better, but for now, I am liking this.
One thing, going home, I realized how much I missed my family. When I am here, I know that they are there, I can talk to them, all of that. But then being with them, doing things, drinking coffee together.... just being in eachothers presence. I miss that. I have not lived up there for 20 years, and I suppose that is why I am so used to it.
For all the years, at least since my mother has passed, his family, as crazy as they are, have been my family.
Now, it is just me and the kids. When they are gone, just me. So, I realize that I miss having someone. It wont always be this way, I know that.
But for now, it is how it is. I drove up there and everything was just so pretty. The hills, the trees, barns, just everything. I didn't want to come home. Of course here I am.
Back to the kids, back to chimes... back to work. My coffee made that sound that it is done about five minutes ago, but it is not in hand yet. What is up with that???
Last night I got to the meeting place about thirty minutes early. I fell asleep in my truck and then there was a little knock on my window, it was L. I looked up. They were waiting for me. I was tired from all the driving and had that time for a snooze.
His mother brought them, kids said, because he is sick. She sped off before knowingt hat they were safely in the vehicle with me. Her car was gone before the kids got into mine.
I looked at L and they have cut 3-4 more inches off of her hair. Her hair used to be almost down to her butt, and now it is at shoulder length. I asked her if they asked if she wanted it cut more and she said no, Grandmoma just started cutting it, Mommy.
They kept the kids coats. UGH. I just was so upset that she lef tthem like that. God forbid.. what if there was something the matter with me, there in my truck. She would have never known, and the kids would have been left standing outside my truck, on Easter Sunday with hardly anyone around.
I mean really, I can think of all kinds of scenarios. Sometimes I wish he would just leave town. Or that i could just leave town. It makes me crazy sick how they are.
I suppose I need to go get my coffee before my Monday is totally out the window, thinking of them.
Happy Monday peeps!
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