LOL.... OR, this unraveling of your true self, is a revelation of just how complex humans really are! Sometimes, our survival instincts do whatever they have to do, to survive....even while we are completely unaware of it happening.
It's basic "animal" instinct to shy away from that which hurts us. The fact that you're playfully referring to yourself as a certifiable nutcase, just shows what society has done to "feelings". If you're not a selfish robot, you're a certifiable nutcase. If you're a selfish robot, you're labeled with yet another "diagnosis". LOL In other words....you're FINE!
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