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Originally Posted by Putty
I was thinking about my life today and going back to my childhood I realized that I made all the wrong choices, and it seemed like everything I did turned out wrong. I am now all alone, I have no one, just God~I know that is a big thing, but I regret so many things.....mostly my entire life. I know this is my only chance of living my life, and I blew it.......I am kind of feeling like it is too late, I am already 50 and my chances are over.
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Good heavens, don't you know that you are putty in the hands of your Maker? And that because He loves you so much He
blesses you with trials and challenging circumstances? Heavenly Father does His best to help you experience new and different things to smooth the rough edges yet remaining in your eternal character, the vital elements you will take with you beyond the grave.
I'm much older than you are and I too (as probably does every adult) am aware of many many choices I made during my lifetime that resulted in less than desirable circumstances. Making choices and learning from the consequences is how we grow, how we prepare to meet God, learn to trust Him completely, to thrust ourselves into an eternity of
progression and fulness of joy, our hand clasped firmly in His, our lives molded after the pattern shown us by His Son.
As long as there is breath in the body there are opportunities to serve others, even if it's just a cheery smile to those passing by.
I suggest that you
forget yourself and do things to
bless the lives of others in your own unique way, as nobody else on earth can. Volunteer in your community, or just write in forums like this one how a challenge taught you something of great value. As you focus on things useful to others you will attract to yourself better circumstances, more opportunities; who knows, maybe even an eternal companion.
Are you familiar with a book called "As a Man Thinketh" by James Allen? You might find it with a Google search or in your local library. It helped me a lot along the way as I too struggled with fears and self doubt, the human condition.
Perhaps your fight is with yourself. Maybe it's with your own fears?
"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1: 7
I wish you the very best with the next forty or fifty years that you may yet be blessed with to learn to love yourself and others even better, and to
serve God's children on earth...