I came across this thread by accident and after reading it through, I decided to look at some of the past posts and threads that the OP has done. Granted, my background is not in healthcare, but it seems to me from some of the posts that I've read thus far, that quite possibly the OP is projecting these 'things' that she states that these men are saying about her, which I believe is more of a mental health type issue on the part of the OP
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Below is a post from a thread that the OP did back in 2015 with a sentence highlighted by me in red for a part of the reason why I am saying the above. And hopefully the OP may decide to seek counseling to resolve some of the issues that she has been posting about on this forum
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Best wishes OP
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[quote=jabber_wocky;39778928]My mother has never known her father or met him, and in turn, I have never known or met my grandfather. I have been wanting to know since I was a small child about who he is and if I have other aunts/or uncles and maybe even cousins. I do not even have his name. The part that has hurt me all these years is my grandmother refuses to tell us anything. Whenever I have asked a name she says she dosen't know it, or she will give me different possible countries that he lives in. It hurts me to think that maybe she does in fact know, (she remember the names of her other children's fathers, just claims she forgot my mother's) she just doesn't want to share that information.
If he is still alive I am convinced he still resides in the United States, or I can locate relatives that do. Once she sent me on a wild goose chase when she mentioned that a family friend had his high-school class ring and when I asked said friend, they had no clue what I was talking about. I was really embarassed.
My uncle told me that knowing who he is is none of my business and I should not be concerned about him. But my grandfather's family is just as much family as my grandmother's and I felt I deserved the right to know.
My grandmother's family is Black, and grandfather's is Asian. This is an entire piece of our heritage that we have been unable to explain or connect with because of this "big secret", that everyone (including grandmother) is unwilling to speak about. My mother being the only mixed Asian person growing up without any support or knowing who she was hurt alot (this was the 60's and 70's).
My mother and I were both ridiculed for being different and only would return home to more ridicule. In secret, I learned Korean and Japanese on my own desperate to connect somehow but ultimately felt lost. I would attend Korean church alone but without the family I wish I knew. The church members would ask me questions , and I could not really answer them.
So I have ordered my mother's birth certificate with the hopes his name may be on it.
I have been asking myself if I should just forget this once and for all? Why do you think there is such a secret around the identity of my grandfather? Why would this not be any of my business?