I will be trying my hand at this blog thingy here. I may or may not continue it as I hope to eventually start my own blog at my own web site. But for now...a blog...even a blog here...is better than no blog .

For anyone reading this...what I blog about will mostly be oriented around how the Lord (I am a Christian) provides for me as I get situated in San Diego.

This blog will not be a sanitized, everything is right with me and world type of blog. I will say what...

soon it will be dark and i will be alone with my thoughts ... the silence of the night it calls out like a old friend ... i hear whispers they the night speak to me ... here in this lil room day in , day out ... i close my eyes the randomness pours in , like a wave of madness ...crazy thoughts begine to take form . the inner madness of my thoughts have gone mad .. past emotions , past pain everything ... i feel it consume , in the end it will be me that pays dearly ... how i wish to get away become...

thought i was the one who made you smile , the one who you dream about .. guess not .. little signs i am starting to see the real you .. deep inside i am hurting ' the ' truth hurts ... you told me i was your everything now i know it was all lies .. yours ... maybe i wanted to believe a guy like you could love a girl like me .. i wanted to think if i let my guard down just this once things would be ok, what a sad mistake ...in the end i was hurt , lied to .. now i am feeling the pain of what love...

my spirit has been broken , my fine angels wings have been cliped .. no longer can i take flight touch the sky , for pain has entered my heart .. i have become dark and twisted no longer a angel ... i have fallen from grace doom to walk a dark place called ' dark hidden realm '.... with in this place where no light , no stars enter to light ones path ..i must trust no one for danger at every turn ... humon kindness has all but faded , darkness covers the great land ... here i must walk alone no...

It does not matter where. Warring nations are two. The third or fourth are often allies, for political or other reasons.

These two warring nations or parties kill their own populace, in the midst of the war or civil war. No thoughts or compassion, for young or old. The Leaders forget the full fledged security blanket they have, that the commoner hasn't. .

Simply because "TWO HEADS" of the two countries or parties are not in agreement or in any form...