looking out my window i see it all .. the starz , the moon , the sun and even the clouds on a good day ... i hear the birs as the sing early morning song ... i feel the early morning breeze on my skin ... during this time i truely dont feel alone but more at peace ... as the night fades and the day starts to break . i feel the warmness of the sun start to come in my eyes are open fully i take it all in the glory of a...

I have been writing quite a bit in the last little while, first to a friend and then making an update to my last blog post so I am a bit tuckered out...writing wise.

As I told my friend...writing to me is a like drugs must be to some people. I get a sort of high when I write something really good. But once I express myself well and fully...I loose the drive to write much more. Until I need my next writing "fix".

But I think I still have a bit in me to write about...

Planning the trip to Tennessee was something unfimiliar to me. I was nervous as any young guy would be who is traveling a thousand miles away from home alone. I thought about how much freedom I have to be able to visit a place undiscovered to me without any hassles. The planning took some time and once the day came I was a bit nervous, dad had a tear in his eye. What dad wouldn't right? I was a boy and was becoming a man by traveling this distance alone. I never hugged my dad as long as I did this...

***I debated on if I should post this, but I thought, what the heck it is on my other blog, so it is out there. I wrote this a few years. I tried to put myself in the shoes of a young boy that has just buried his soldier father. The thing I didn't mention on the other blog... it is dedicated to certain little boy that I know and love, but also to all the families that have had to say good-bye.***





Daddy is Gone

My mommy is crying, I must...

Eagle's Wings

Right now all I feel like doing is whining. Whining on here and whining to God. I'm so tired of being exhausted. I'm sick and tired of waking up feeling more exhausted than when I went to bed. I'm so tired of of taking a mega dose of sleeping pills and then not sleeping (at which point, I'm not only exhausted but I'm sick as well, like today). I'm not a jealous person, but I do get envious of people that can sleep and wake up feeling refreshed. It has been so long...