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Well I had a dream of Russia it was very involving and I've woken up very spiritual and high rather than wailing at my life,as if I'm ready to honour the sacred and transforming,the riddled.But truly I'm almost like a Christian in that I often put pagan things away to look at a bright cosy world full of light,to try and create it and live in it the way Christians do.I think that's all very Christian and I'm not hostile to Christianity I think it brought in waves of happiness that the world really...

Well I've been looking at the beautiful Whittard's teas,when I went to Oxford to see a store owned by my gx3 grandfather it had been turned into a Whittards and really England takes tea so seriously and presents everything in such a classic,pretty way.Still wish I could have a little tea company with lovely ornamental tins.Have been looking at cute babies and British things on Pinterest too,oh but I listen to people talk about how difficult it is to raise a baby/child and I think maybe it's just...

Nope, there just seems to be a spot lower and lower than what I thought was the lowest. I did just get my computer back today after 3 months and that is a relief, since it was going to be lost after today to the pawn shop, but I also lost my house a few days ago to eviction. This is how it goes for me lately. A little win, (getting my mac back) then a huge loss (losing my home.) The worst thing about being homeless and broke tho, isnt sleeping in car, being alone and lost, changing bags in public...

The one thing keeping me going at the moment is the thought of Etain,Etain was an Irish goddess who when Fuamnach lost her husband to Etain exacted revenge on Etain turning her into a worm and butterfly and cursing her to battle winds and other trials, till a thousand years later she was reborn again as Etain and reunited with her love.The ability to completely endure in this story always helps me as I battle the winds of my own life,thinking one day I will resume and come to life again.'The image...