Have been suicidal lately,I feel somewhat happy....my mood is always happy but I'm tired of being unable to think,questions are posed and I can't think of an answer,or idea.I'm just so use to having thousands of ideas and thoughts running through my head all the time,thats how it always was,I feel just so ordinary now.Im tired of worrying about my illness also,I think I'm going to have to go to hospital as it's just not improving.But what can the hospital do? they can't make my bowels start working.I...
