Tennessee Dreaming
Posted 08-10-2008 at 01:21 PM by tennesseedreamin
For years and years I dreamed of living in Tennessee. Living in Southern Ca all of my life was taking it's toll on me. I longed for green. I longed for nature. Finally, after a brush with death I took off with no more than the shirt on my back (I'm not kidding) & ended up in Gatlinburg where I secured a housekeeping job that nearly killed me but I was in HEAVEN. I wandered in awe through the forest, sat in peace at the riverside, listened happily to the songbirds, was charmed by the fireflies, thrilled at the wildlife and reveled at the thunderstorms. It was so healing, so wonderful. But it was snatched away from me in only 7 months and I had no choice but to return to Ca.
I believe it was unbearable depression and the heartcrushing pain of cruel family but my cancer returned. I lost a kidney, my other is nephrostamised. I lost so much weight I was a shadow of my former self. That's me in the picture, fresh out of the hospital. They gave me 2 weeks to 6 months to live. I couldn't even walk without assistance. But through the months I've fought back enough to regain a bit of my old strength. I still have stage 4 cancer but I'm not giving up.
It may sound weird but Tennessee, the thought of going back, is one of the things that keeps me going. I pray for a miracle, that somehow I might return before I die. Ah well. Now you know the story of my screen name.
I believe it was unbearable depression and the heartcrushing pain of cruel family but my cancer returned. I lost a kidney, my other is nephrostamised. I lost so much weight I was a shadow of my former self. That's me in the picture, fresh out of the hospital. They gave me 2 weeks to 6 months to live. I couldn't even walk without assistance. But through the months I've fought back enough to regain a bit of my old strength. I still have stage 4 cancer but I'm not giving up.
It may sound weird but Tennessee, the thought of going back, is one of the things that keeps me going. I pray for a miracle, that somehow I might return before I die. Ah well. Now you know the story of my screen name.
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If you think Tennessee is beautiful, just wait 'til you get to heaven. I hear the innkeeper is breathtaking!
You are in my prayers.
weather... <><Posted 08-10-2008 at 03:18 PM by weatherologist
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I'm sorry to hear about your cancer.... Tennessee sure is gods country. I to hope that you can make it back to Tennessee....Posted 08-10-2008 at 06:53 PM by JoshB
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tennesseedreamin, I wish to pass these words on to you and hope they bring you peace with your Creator.
I Am There
I am the breeze that kisses your cheek.
I am the sun that warms your face.
When you look at the purple evening sky, it is me.
When you see a majestic mountain, it is me.
When the birds sweetly sing, it is my voice.
When the water gently laps against the shore, it is my heartbeat.
I am the green grass against your feet.
I am the refreshing shade of summer.
In the stars, you see my eyes.
In the blue sky, you see my body.
Feel the air that surrounds you, I am there.
Feel the love in your heart, I am there.
May the Creator look over you and gently cradle you within his hands. osay
Posted 08-10-2008 at 08:06 PM by ptsum
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I have a friend who is battling cancer, so I know what you are experiencing. Keep pressing on, and don't ever give up. My thoughts and prayers are with you. And I hope you get that long-awaited chance to return to Tennessee.
Posted 12-03-2008 at 04:57 PM by case44
