The road we travel

Tonight at dinner, he said something that I have always felt. I have never heard him say it, and I don't think I have ever told him my feelings on the matter....

We were discussing the need or lack of need for one another. He told me he could live without me but would rather have me in his life. There wasn't very much time in between myself and his ex so I asked him how he knew. How did he know if he needed me or not, or how did he know if it was better with me, than without. Or even without me when he was with her.

I looked at him and placed my hand on the side of his face and said, "Aw, I am sorry you had such a hard time in the past...."

He looked at me and told me that he wasn't. I asked him why. He turned to me and told me that if he had not had that rough time in his life, he would not be sitting here with me today.

I feel that way in life. I feel that everything in life happens for a reason. Every turn we make in life leads us on the road we must travel to get to where we belong.

I don't know or remember if I have told him how I felt about this at all. I am certain he has never told me. All I know, is that tonight when he said that to me, I was truly touched. I think that made me love him just a little more.

The two of us have traveled separate roads for all of these years in our lives, not all of them great. One day there was a juncture between us and instead of traveling on two roads, we travel on one. Now we are together, traveling the same road.

All of the lefts and rights we have both taken all of these years brought us to a certain place in time where we met one another. I am quite sure, that had either of us turned any differently, we would not be sitting here across from one another tonight.

This is how I believe life works for people. This is how I know it has worked for me. I have traveled this freeway of life and I have found much hurt and pain on the byways and highways. Every once in a while a spruce of happiness to keep me going. Just enough to let me know that life can in fact be good. I traveled on.

This certain juncture..... I wasn't sure I was going to take it. I took a chance and stopped looking at the map. This was a road I was sure I wasn't supposed to take, but something just told me to turn.

Here we are in our usual seats. He in his chair and me on the couch. Just like an old married couple. Well, maybe one day we will be. As for now........just happy I found my way.