Panic Attack Central
Posted 01-07-2009 at 05:06 PM by shannybannany
As I drove to McGuire AFB today in the rain, I started to shake. I had a full-blown panic attack on 295. I managed to talk my out of it. I certainly did not want to get into a car crash. I sipped some water and I calmed down.
As I was waiting to see my doctor, I started having another panic attack....right there in the waiting room. I got up, walked to the door and calmed myself down.
The young airman called my name. Usually when I go to McGuire, I get a female tech but today it was a male. As he asked me questions about medications that I take, weight, height, etc..., I had another panic attack...right as he was going to take my blood pressure..Great!
I calmed myself down and he did manage to get a reading. I have normal bp but when excited or panicky, it can shoot up...114/70, whew!
As I waited for my doctor, I started to cry. My mother told me today that my paternal grandfather (whom I never met... he died way before I was born) died of renal failure/kidney cancer. "I didn't want to tell you until you were going to the doctor because I knew you'd flip out."
I don't have a relationship with my biological father or any family that is left on his side.
They found THREE (I thought it was one) lesions on my left kidney and I found out on New Years Eve. Of course, after hearing this news, I went to the Internet and tried to find out what I could about lesions on kidneys. I scared myself to death. Hence....why I had panic attack after panic attack this morning.
My doctor walked into the room as I sat sobbing. "Mam, these lesions are tiny...I really don't think we have to worry here."
I do have a renal ultrasound scheduled for Friday morning but because of heredity, this is something that is going to have to be closely monitored.
I'm tired.
As I was waiting to see my doctor, I started having another panic attack....right there in the waiting room. I got up, walked to the door and calmed myself down.
The young airman called my name. Usually when I go to McGuire, I get a female tech but today it was a male. As he asked me questions about medications that I take, weight, height, etc..., I had another panic attack...right as he was going to take my blood pressure..Great!
I calmed myself down and he did manage to get a reading. I have normal bp but when excited or panicky, it can shoot up...114/70, whew!
As I waited for my doctor, I started to cry. My mother told me today that my paternal grandfather (whom I never met... he died way before I was born) died of renal failure/kidney cancer. "I didn't want to tell you until you were going to the doctor because I knew you'd flip out."
I don't have a relationship with my biological father or any family that is left on his side.
They found THREE (I thought it was one) lesions on my left kidney and I found out on New Years Eve. Of course, after hearing this news, I went to the Internet and tried to find out what I could about lesions on kidneys. I scared myself to death. Hence....why I had panic attack after panic attack this morning.
My doctor walked into the room as I sat sobbing. "Mam, these lesions are tiny...I really don't think we have to worry here."
I do have a renal ultrasound scheduled for Friday morning but because of heredity, this is something that is going to have to be closely monitored.
I'm tired.
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Hey Shanny, I'm glad everything thing turned out the way they did.Posted 01-07-2009 at 05:27 PM by East Coast Wanderer
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Hey there, Shanny!
Try not to panic. My paternal grandfather died of lung cancer, and I have teeny, tiny lesions on my lungs (yeah...we're both smokers
). The key is early detection.
I take Effexor for anxiety. First thing that was recommended and works like a charm. Perhaps you could mention it to your doc.Posted 07-29-2009 at 05:55 AM by soulsurv
