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This blog is where I express myself to the world or at least to those who might stop by to read what I post 
. Maybe God will use what I post (I am a Christian and this blog will have a most decidedly Christian bent to it) to good effect in the lives of my readers.
I may turn some of my posts into a book. I may cease blogging here altogether. Who knows. But for now..I am content to post away in this, my own little corner of the world.
Rather than reading through my now lengthy list of posts you may wish to read what I consider to be my very best posts or you can just read the posts that deal with a single subject category that might interest you.
Please know that I am open to any input on any topic I write about. If you have something to say about anything you see written here please....feel free to speak up in the form of leaving a comment or sending me a PM (private message).
And if you are in San Diego and wish to meet the one and only Carlos (that's me)...drop me a private message. I always enjoy meeting one of my readers!
Thanks.
Carlos
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. Maybe God will use what I post (I am a Christian and this blog will have a most decidedly Christian bent to it) to good effect in the lives of my readers. I may turn some of my posts into a book. I may cease blogging here altogether. Who knows. But for now..I am content to post away in this, my own little corner of the world.
Rather than reading through my now lengthy list of posts you may wish to read what I consider to be my very best posts or you can just read the posts that deal with a single subject category that might interest you.
Please know that I am open to any input on any topic I write about. If you have something to say about anything you see written here please....feel free to speak up in the form of leaving a comment or sending me a PM (private message).
And if you are in San Diego and wish to meet the one and only Carlos (that's me
)...drop me a private message. I always enjoy meeting one of my readers!Thanks.
Carlos
PS. If you want to follow my blog such that you will get an email when I write new posts you can subscribe to my blog.
Relationship with God is such a wonderful thing!
Posted 07-24-2009 at 09:11 PM by carlos123
Updated 07-24-2009 at 09:36 PM by carlos123 (Added the PS.)
Updated 07-24-2009 at 09:36 PM by carlos123 (Added the PS.)
Tonight I was praying some...pouring out my thoughts and concerns before the Lord. About my life. About my future. Telling Him what was on my heart.
I honestly don't know what to do with my life sometimes. I mean here I am...my legs have ceased to be what they were. Almost certainly I have now developed a bad case of arthritus. They will probably never again be what they were when I was younger.
I will probably never be able to walk again as I could do just two months ago.
I am poor.
Lots of other things I can mention which most of you know about already.
Some things I can certainly change. But some things I can't.
Many of my hopes and dreams from my younger years will never be. They can no longer be. The years go on and opportunities pass never to be realized again.
Yet...despite all this and the very real possibility that one could get depressed over such things...I am at peace. Knowing God and being in intimate relationship with Him.
And for me...that is enough. Truly.
I have what relatively few people have (compared to the many that don't). I have Him. I have all of Him and He has all of me.
While all the world pursues wealth, fame, the perfect spouse, and any number of other things that are deemed to be necessary to make one happy I have been freed from all such pursuit both by force of circumstances and personal decision to pursue something else. Relationship to God. And His will.
My aim in life is to please Him. To walk closely with Him. To hear His voice to my spirit in the quiet of the night. To be taken into the heavenlies as I behold His face. To experience His peace in the midst of a world gone mad.
I taste all these things and with the tasting I am reminded again and again that nothing in life compares to relationship to Him.
Nothing and no one even comes close!
I do not mean to say that I live in some kind of heavenly realm and that I walk around with a halo on my head. Far from it. I am only too human in my constant failings.
But tonight as I prayed and sought the face of God I was reminded again that life truly is wrapped up in relationship to Him and that I truly need nothing else to experience incredible peace, joy, and abundant life. In the inner man.
I and many others are living proof that one can, despite incredibly hard cirscumstances, find something absolutely wonderful and almost beyond description. Relationship with the God who created us all.
Who knows our inward being. Who created us. Who knows what we need and what makes us tick. And who wants relationship with us. Who desires that. Who wants us to fellowship with Him.
That is absolutely amazing!
Here is a wonderful Psalm that expresses the wonder of relationship to God that I feel tonight.
How often have I come to the end of my rope in life only to find God ready at a moments notice to come to my aid! Almost before a cry for help has escaped my lips He has been there!
To comfort me when I have needed it. To correct me, provide for me, and take me under the shadow of His wings and protect me from the evil that might rage around me.
He has become my all in life and I have been made to feel like I am the apple of His eye by relationship to Him.
When I go to sleep He is there.
When I wake up He has never left my side.
When I suffer He suffers with me by virtue of living in me by His Spirit.
When I cry He feels my pain and sorrow.
When I laugh He smiles.
When I see beauty in life the Creator of that which I am beholding enjoys it with me.
I cannot escape His Presence even if I wanted to.
He is my best friend, my God, and my King.
I am His bondservant.
I have allowed Him to make me His servant for life. Irrevocably. I am bound to Him as He has chosen to be bound to me through the death of Christ.
What an incredibly wondrous thing!
Truly He is all that some of us can hope in. Some of us that have suffered in this life and continue to suffer are in a place of more easily being able to discover the treasure that He is. For we have lost much.
Perhaps in that loss God has graciously brought us Himself!
Truly goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life and I will come to dwell in the House of the Lord forever!
Carlos
PS. If anyone wants to listen to some awesome worship music, freely streamed over the Internet...I highly recommend a site called imeem.com. This site has agreements to stream the music of the four major record labels in the U.S. freely as users upload the songs they have purchased. Two of my favorite songs are My Heart Will Trust by Hillsong and Jesus, Lover of my Soul by Kare Jobe. Two songs I can highly recommend among many others there.
I honestly don't know what to do with my life sometimes. I mean here I am...my legs have ceased to be what they were. Almost certainly I have now developed a bad case of arthritus. They will probably never again be what they were when I was younger.
I will probably never be able to walk again as I could do just two months ago.
I am poor.
Lots of other things I can mention which most of you know about already.
Some things I can certainly change. But some things I can't.
Many of my hopes and dreams from my younger years will never be. They can no longer be. The years go on and opportunities pass never to be realized again.
Yet...despite all this and the very real possibility that one could get depressed over such things...I am at peace. Knowing God and being in intimate relationship with Him.
And for me...that is enough. Truly.
I have what relatively few people have (compared to the many that don't). I have Him. I have all of Him and He has all of me.
While all the world pursues wealth, fame, the perfect spouse, and any number of other things that are deemed to be necessary to make one happy I have been freed from all such pursuit both by force of circumstances and personal decision to pursue something else. Relationship to God. And His will.
My aim in life is to please Him. To walk closely with Him. To hear His voice to my spirit in the quiet of the night. To be taken into the heavenlies as I behold His face. To experience His peace in the midst of a world gone mad.
I taste all these things and with the tasting I am reminded again and again that nothing in life compares to relationship to Him.
Nothing and no one even comes close!
I do not mean to say that I live in some kind of heavenly realm and that I walk around with a halo on my head. Far from it. I am only too human in my constant failings.
But tonight as I prayed and sought the face of God I was reminded again that life truly is wrapped up in relationship to Him and that I truly need nothing else to experience incredible peace, joy, and abundant life. In the inner man.
I and many others are living proof that one can, despite incredibly hard cirscumstances, find something absolutely wonderful and almost beyond description. Relationship with the God who created us all.
Who knows our inward being. Who created us. Who knows what we need and what makes us tick. And who wants relationship with us. Who desires that. Who wants us to fellowship with Him.
That is absolutely amazing!
Here is a wonderful Psalm that expresses the wonder of relationship to God that I feel tonight.
Quote:
Psalm 139 [from the NASB...a quote of less than 100 verses is allowed by the publisher of this bible]
O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar. You scrutinize my path and my lying down, And are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O LORD, You know it all.
You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
Even there Your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, And the light around me will be night,"
Even the darkness is not dark to You, And the night is as bright as the day Darkness and light are alike to You.
For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed
substance;
And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand
When I awake, I am still with You.
O that You would slay the wicked, O God;
Depart from me, therefore, men of bloodshed.
For they speak against You wickedly, And Your enemies take Your name in vain.
Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against
You? I hate them with the utmost hatred;
They have become my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.
O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar. You scrutinize my path and my lying down, And are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O LORD, You know it all.
You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
Even there Your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, And the light around me will be night,"
Even the darkness is not dark to You, And the night is as bright as the day Darkness and light are alike to You.
For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed
substance;
And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand
When I awake, I am still with You.
O that You would slay the wicked, O God;
Depart from me, therefore, men of bloodshed.
For they speak against You wickedly, And Your enemies take Your name in vain.
Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against
You? I hate them with the utmost hatred;
They have become my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.
To comfort me when I have needed it. To correct me, provide for me, and take me under the shadow of His wings and protect me from the evil that might rage around me.
He has become my all in life and I have been made to feel like I am the apple of His eye by relationship to Him.
When I go to sleep He is there.
When I wake up He has never left my side.
When I suffer He suffers with me by virtue of living in me by His Spirit.
When I cry He feels my pain and sorrow.
When I laugh He smiles.
When I see beauty in life the Creator of that which I am beholding enjoys it with me.
I cannot escape His Presence even if I wanted to.
He is my best friend, my God, and my King.
I am His bondservant.
I have allowed Him to make me His servant for life. Irrevocably. I am bound to Him as He has chosen to be bound to me through the death of Christ.
What an incredibly wondrous thing!
Truly He is all that some of us can hope in. Some of us that have suffered in this life and continue to suffer are in a place of more easily being able to discover the treasure that He is. For we have lost much.
Perhaps in that loss God has graciously brought us Himself!
Truly goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life and I will come to dwell in the House of the Lord forever!
Carlos
PS. If anyone wants to listen to some awesome worship music, freely streamed over the Internet...I highly recommend a site called imeem.com. This site has agreements to stream the music of the four major record labels in the U.S. freely as users upload the songs they have purchased. Two of my favorite songs are My Heart Will Trust by Hillsong and Jesus, Lover of my Soul by Kare Jobe. Two songs I can highly recommend among many others there.
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Before you give up on your arthritis, try a few simple things.
Go Wal Mart and get a vitamin B complex and a magnesium calcium complex. Take the vitamin B after every meal and take the Magnesium Calcium before you go to bed. See if you feel better at the end of a month. It is worth the price. I suffered from sever carple tunnel syndrome and pain in my knees. The therapist who visited my workplace recommended these two and the results were amazing. I used to have terrible pain when I tried to sleep. It would move to different places in my body every night, but would keep me sleepless. After two weeks of taking these two supplements, I no longer had any more pain and have been pain free for 5 years. The only time the pain has returned is when I ran out and I didn't get more immediately. After about two weeks, the pain is back.Posted 07-25-2009 at 08:11 PM by yukiko11
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Thanks so very much for your input on this Yukiko. As soon as I make some more discretionary income I will certainly go out and purchase what you suggest. I am in the process of creating a web site that I can use to promote my programming services and will start making calls shortly to generate more income than just what I need for my basic needs.
Having a yahoo address, no web site, and no reference that I can readily use just doesn't cut it with respect to getting additional professional computer work than from just the one company that somehow managed to hire me and the infrequent extra work I get from this and that person from craigslist.
I can walk thank God...but just not very well is all.
And if I push myself too hard I end up with some limited pain in one or the other knee.
But hey...I can at least walk! I am thankful for that!
The worst time is when I have sat or otherwise not been moving about for a while and get up to start walking...ouchy...not real bad but definitely noticeable. Until I start walking...at which time the slight pain in my knees usually goes away.
Of course there are also the stiff muscles and occasional cramps from walking a bit less than...well...normally.
CarlosPosted 07-25-2009 at 09:29 PM by carlos123
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As you know, I have been taking a leave from working after 41 years of what I would consider 41 years of slavery I am also afraid that I won't make it.
I do have enough to get to my retirement at 62, but not enough to keep my home.
Maybe it's my time to just give it up and let the next generation take over. If I give up, I have no doubt that God will reject me, but lately, I am not so sure I care.
I am not able to use my experience to help anyone, so it is worthless.
I am out of ideas.Posted 07-25-2009 at 09:59 PM by yukiko11
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I tried to answer you personal message but got a message that your ID was void.
I thank you for your support and I have nothing to hide in my life so I don't have to hide my messages. If you would feel better, please delete my message as nothing I ever say is about anyone else, just me.
I am currently going through an "oh poor me" time in my life. I have been there and done that and I know that after a short period of time, I will snap out of it and pick up my burden and go on with my journey.
I apologize for burdening you with my pain. It is mine to bear. God will give me tough shoes when I have a tough trip.Posted 07-26-2009 at 02:39 PM by yukiko11
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Dear Yukiko....you have nothing to apologize for. We are to help carry each other's burdens. By sharing yours you have honored me with the opportunity to love by my further comments and in my PM to you. I am here for you as much as you have been here for me.
God loves you Yukiko!
CarlosPosted 07-26-2009 at 04:33 PM by carlos123
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Here's a beautiful song for you Yukiko!
Kari Jobe - Come to Me - Free MP3 Stream on IMEEM Music
CarlosPosted 07-26-2009 at 04:55 PM by carlos123
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Thanks for your caring, I will back when I am really me.Posted 07-26-2009 at 05:07 PM by yukiko11
