Mostly RV stories from the road, starting in June.
But first, you'll see how difficult it is just trying to get ready and actually leave home for a few months!
But first, you'll see how difficult it is just trying to get ready and actually leave home for a few months!
Who knows....?
Posted 06-09-2009 at 03:47 PM by anomoly
Finally made it from Yuma to S. NM.
Getting my motorhome out of storage, it wasn't nearly as empty as I remembered leaving it. I was overwhelmed again, as I'd been before when I was living in it. Where to start to get it organized, and why does it seem 'this is all I ever do', continually dealing with unorganized clutter. But I made progress, and got rid of more stuff, so it feels better now. I have to remember how to do this-- remember how to live on the road, no easy feat.
I also realize my plans must change. I cannot do the same trip I've done twice before, cover the same territory, lead the same isolated lifestyle as before. No, I need 'new'. New territory to explore, but I also need people and connection much more now, so this trip may include more time in one place, more opportunity for involvement. I'm more lonely now than before. I'm in a different phase.
I'm not in the 'crisis phase' of my Tucson experience from 2000 to 2005. I'm not in the 'transition phase' that followed from 2005 on, when wandering alone was necessary. Since I moved to Yuma in January, this year is the beginning of my 'reconnection with society' phase, where stability and permanence are much more appealing. Because of this, my 3 month trip ahead feels very scary. I feel kind of lost and afraid of the boredom of being alone everywhere I go.
I can't continue to live in the 'transition phase' because it's the past, but I can't imagine finding what I'm looking for on the road. I also can't live in Yuma during the summer. So, How do I find friends to enjoy my travels, or experience any sense of belonging from day to day, on the road? I need to stay somewhere a little longer this time, with people I enjoy. So hard to find... Who knows, though? Who knows?
Getting my motorhome out of storage, it wasn't nearly as empty as I remembered leaving it. I was overwhelmed again, as I'd been before when I was living in it. Where to start to get it organized, and why does it seem 'this is all I ever do', continually dealing with unorganized clutter. But I made progress, and got rid of more stuff, so it feels better now. I have to remember how to do this-- remember how to live on the road, no easy feat.
I also realize my plans must change. I cannot do the same trip I've done twice before, cover the same territory, lead the same isolated lifestyle as before. No, I need 'new'. New territory to explore, but I also need people and connection much more now, so this trip may include more time in one place, more opportunity for involvement. I'm more lonely now than before. I'm in a different phase.
I'm not in the 'crisis phase' of my Tucson experience from 2000 to 2005. I'm not in the 'transition phase' that followed from 2005 on, when wandering alone was necessary. Since I moved to Yuma in January, this year is the beginning of my 'reconnection with society' phase, where stability and permanence are much more appealing. Because of this, my 3 month trip ahead feels very scary. I feel kind of lost and afraid of the boredom of being alone everywhere I go.
I can't continue to live in the 'transition phase' because it's the past, but I can't imagine finding what I'm looking for on the road. I also can't live in Yuma during the summer. So, How do I find friends to enjoy my travels, or experience any sense of belonging from day to day, on the road? I need to stay somewhere a little longer this time, with people I enjoy. So hard to find... Who knows, though? Who knows?
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Good luck - I fully understand your current feeings. I was always amazed that you could move from spot to spot - alone - and enjoy it. I drove down to FL a few years ago to check it out for a potential retirement area - it was just me and my dog. I'd never been on a vaction alone but had traveled a lot with my job - often alone - and it never bothered me so I thought this was quite doable. I had a meeting in NYC and went the weekend before and walked all over, including Central Park, and just loved it. But I was miserable on this vacation. Even though I spent 1 1/2 days with a realtor, I was so lonely - watching couples, families. I felt I was on the outside looking in. Yuk. As you said, I was in a different phase. My previous fearless bravado took a hike.
I hope you enjoy your adventures!Posted 06-10-2009 at 09:19 AM by Umbria
