I may be in remission....
Posted Yesterday at 10:13 AM by TNSLPPTSO13
The results of my ctscan are in....
This was the first line in the test result report:
1. No appreciable mass is identified in the GE junction or stomach. No evidence of residual or recurrent malignancy.
I have to see my Oncologist 7/16....
Why don't I feel grateful or happy?
Could it be that I was always in denial about getting sick in the first place?..Therefore the positive diagnosis doesn't mean that much to me.
Most likely is this ****ing depression that will not allow me to even feel good about temporarily evading death.
FWIW...I cancelled my will/trust applications with
LegalZoom...They sent me the documents for me to sign...That Power of Attorney requirement scared me a bit...I don't want to give control of my personal stuff to anybody..I don't trust anybody....Plus I don't have anybody that would be willing/able to be my POA.After I die let them fight for the crumbs. Most likely I will die in debt anyway and my meager assets won't cover it all.
My only concern is regarding my cat. I don't know anybody who'd be willing to take her in after my death.Somebody on Reddit mentioned some local rescue groups that do this kind of thing for elder orphans like myself;definitely have to look into those and reserve my place.
So I cancelled everything...did not ask for a refund...I don't think I would have qualified for one since the work has already started..$330 in the toilet..Well,it won't be the first time I lose money because of an impulsive reaction to things.
I'm just a worthless POS...No real reason for me to be alive in this ****ing world.
This was the first line in the test result report:
1. No appreciable mass is identified in the GE junction or stomach. No evidence of residual or recurrent malignancy.
I have to see my Oncologist 7/16....
Why don't I feel grateful or happy?
Could it be that I was always in denial about getting sick in the first place?..Therefore the positive diagnosis doesn't mean that much to me.
Most likely is this ****ing depression that will not allow me to even feel good about temporarily evading death.
FWIW...I cancelled my will/trust applications with
LegalZoom...They sent me the documents for me to sign...That Power of Attorney requirement scared me a bit...I don't want to give control of my personal stuff to anybody..I don't trust anybody....Plus I don't have anybody that would be willing/able to be my POA.After I die let them fight for the crumbs. Most likely I will die in debt anyway and my meager assets won't cover it all.
My only concern is regarding my cat. I don't know anybody who'd be willing to take her in after my death.Somebody on Reddit mentioned some local rescue groups that do this kind of thing for elder orphans like myself;definitely have to look into those and reserve my place.
So I cancelled everything...did not ask for a refund...I don't think I would have qualified for one since the work has already started..$330 in the toilet..Well,it won't be the first time I lose money because of an impulsive reaction to things.
I'm just a worthless POS...No real reason for me to be alive in this ****ing world.
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