Navigating life without a manual.....
Posted 01-21-2024 at 10:14 AM by Auraliea
I don't talk about my feelings much....
Primarily because most people won't get it and I've always been someone who tries to "figure it out."
All my life I have been reminded in more than a few ways that I am different. Whether it's people making comments about the way that I speak, think, or how my life seems to be playing out in a way that is the opposite of what they expected. Either way it goes...it translates to one thing....not really being seen.
Connecting with people sometimes feels like an impossibility because my life isn't going according to the "script' society has made for us. According to society, I should be successful in my career, have a family, and living in a typical suburb. But that's not my life.
Life is way more complex than that. At least it is for me. Sometimes my life feels like it makes absolutely no sense becuase I have no guide. No manual or script for how I am suppose to live as a woman of color who is also aromantic and asexual. Finding my tribe has been a challenge because I don't even know where to begin. I've just resigned myself to just living my life and letting whatever happens, happens.
But it can get lonely at times. I wouldn't mind a friend who actually sees me as a human being and not reduce me to set of expectations laid out for us before we were even born. This blog is more of a nonsensical rant as talking about these things with the people around me, can be difficult.
All I can really do is be patient....maybe one day......
Primarily because most people won't get it and I've always been someone who tries to "figure it out."
All my life I have been reminded in more than a few ways that I am different. Whether it's people making comments about the way that I speak, think, or how my life seems to be playing out in a way that is the opposite of what they expected. Either way it goes...it translates to one thing....not really being seen.
Connecting with people sometimes feels like an impossibility because my life isn't going according to the "script' society has made for us. According to society, I should be successful in my career, have a family, and living in a typical suburb. But that's not my life.
Life is way more complex than that. At least it is for me. Sometimes my life feels like it makes absolutely no sense becuase I have no guide. No manual or script for how I am suppose to live as a woman of color who is also aromantic and asexual. Finding my tribe has been a challenge because I don't even know where to begin. I've just resigned myself to just living my life and letting whatever happens, happens.
But it can get lonely at times. I wouldn't mind a friend who actually sees me as a human being and not reduce me to set of expectations laid out for us before we were even born. This blog is more of a nonsensical rant as talking about these things with the people around me, can be difficult.
All I can really do is be patient....maybe one day......
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