day to start giving to myself

I am exhausted! But it is a good exhaustion. I am sore too, and I earned the sore muscles, but pain is still pain! Today was my second day on my new job, but rthe first day was just watching videos and showing me around. Today was a full shift out in the field with my boss. I can barely pick up the scooters, much less figure out the apps and which one to use! I am so impatient with myself when I am learning a new job. I feel like I should just be able to pick it up, like the moment it is told to me. I would tell any person I am training on a new job that you aren't born knowing how to walk and talk, but we all learn. It isn'y logical to expect yourself to just know and execute something you have never done flawlessly. But I get so frustrated with myself when I go blank on what to do, make mistakes, and am so slow, I feel stupid and think the person training me doesn't think I am able to do the job. This is my own internal voice of doubt, not something my trainer has told me, or even indicated he felt. Just my amazing lack of self esteem. Every muscle hurts, and every part of me is just beat. I worked a good days work, and that is why I feel good about the aches and pains. Tomorrow I do the shift on my own, so I am positive the soreness will be worse after the shift, but I also know it will only make me stronger. Or deader! lol

I needed to stay busy, as well as supplement my income in order to get out of this downtown apt and in a house I can make into a home, get my tooth fixed, start really taking care of my health, start preparing for the alimony to end and be able to cover at least that amount, and replace my vehicle, just to name a few. Plus, I need to have my **** together for my grandson, who will be here in 8 short days.!!