Moonlit mysteries,girlish whims,divine feminine
Oh I long to go on a train journey through Britain from Oxford to Glouchestershire to Wales,I long to move to England at the moment.It would be so much like going home,home to my ancestral lands and to everything my heart holds dear.But part of me loves how idyllic it all is from far away,you can sort of dream it all up,it's like how a lover seems so majestic and perfect when you can't be near them.There must be some way I can move to England oh it's so unfair I really ask myself why I was born in Australia.
I seem to be in a girlish whim,every sort of antique dress,feminine skirts and flowers galore inspires me.I can't tell you the grief I'm experiencing though at no longer being able to conjure,concoct or come up with novels,my mind just feels unable to do things,it's blank.Something just happened to my brain that I can't conjure or think,or have ideas and everyday it pains me that I'm not sitting in a cafe on the MacBook writing novels.
I really try hard to move on with my life but so many things remind me of what has happened.I think it's probably too soon to move on.I sing little Doris day songs to myself to stay strong.I woke up in an esoteric mood this morning,back into the mysteries, I had wondered where it had gone.It is a welcome coming.Sometimes I'm wholly in the daytime world of light,the world of nesting,building a life,weddings,happy things and other times right under the sea,swimming with the mermaids,traversing the underworld, trying to decipher the darkness, which can be too dark at times.But I honestly love both worlds.
I didn't feel ready yesterday to go into that world,but I feel it strongly today,that all the answers are there.Its probably the right time to figure out what this time is trying to tell,I read the overview for the solar eclipse on the 21st at mysticmamma it says that "The fixed star Regulus just moved out of Leo, where it’s been for 2000 years, and into Virgo- the sign of the Divine Feminine and the Virgin." I really hope this heralds the rise of the divine feminine,and the rise of feminine principles.If you don't know what the divine feminine is you can see my "divine feminine" board at Pinterest.com/katiewistow.
I really think astrology is so very fascinating and so highly symbolic.Id love to be an astrologer or a dream analyst today.I miss being a mystic and what a great mystic and seer I could have been and was meant to be.My head is still jumbled from everything that happened and so it's harder to find the answers then it was before where everything just came to me.Last year especially I just navigated that world of spirit and mysteries with ease,I need to write it all down everything I went through last year.It was such a ripe time my gosh I don't think I've had such spiritual heights as I had last year,and I weep when I think how psychiatry as a science belittles,suppresses,destroys and negates it.I have always been highly intuitive,thousand year old secrets come to me,songs,stories,prophecies and riddles,lullabies,nursery rhymes,tales and tellings it all comes to me,goddesses embodied and moonlit mysteries yet the meds of psychiatry destroyed it all as not being worthy of discussion or power.I sometimes wonder about myself as a wise woman coming out of the woods or as heaven sent.I thought I wanted only the light of heaven and nothing more a life of light and happiness,cottages and babies and every good thing,tea and toast and sweet songs but I suddenly long for mania and mysteries,for the woods and the wise woman,to tell my fortune, to lead me back into the night,the magic of the moon.It could be the temper of the skies.My god the feminine world has so much spirit,magic,wisdom,feeling,heights,poetry,passion ,and mystery for us.
I seem to be in a girlish whim,every sort of antique dress,feminine skirts and flowers galore inspires me.I can't tell you the grief I'm experiencing though at no longer being able to conjure,concoct or come up with novels,my mind just feels unable to do things,it's blank.Something just happened to my brain that I can't conjure or think,or have ideas and everyday it pains me that I'm not sitting in a cafe on the MacBook writing novels.
I really try hard to move on with my life but so many things remind me of what has happened.I think it's probably too soon to move on.I sing little Doris day songs to myself to stay strong.I woke up in an esoteric mood this morning,back into the mysteries, I had wondered where it had gone.It is a welcome coming.Sometimes I'm wholly in the daytime world of light,the world of nesting,building a life,weddings,happy things and other times right under the sea,swimming with the mermaids,traversing the underworld, trying to decipher the darkness, which can be too dark at times.But I honestly love both worlds.
I didn't feel ready yesterday to go into that world,but I feel it strongly today,that all the answers are there.Its probably the right time to figure out what this time is trying to tell,I read the overview for the solar eclipse on the 21st at mysticmamma it says that "The fixed star Regulus just moved out of Leo, where it’s been for 2000 years, and into Virgo- the sign of the Divine Feminine and the Virgin." I really hope this heralds the rise of the divine feminine,and the rise of feminine principles.If you don't know what the divine feminine is you can see my "divine feminine" board at Pinterest.com/katiewistow.
I really think astrology is so very fascinating and so highly symbolic.Id love to be an astrologer or a dream analyst today.I miss being a mystic and what a great mystic and seer I could have been and was meant to be.My head is still jumbled from everything that happened and so it's harder to find the answers then it was before where everything just came to me.Last year especially I just navigated that world of spirit and mysteries with ease,I need to write it all down everything I went through last year.It was such a ripe time my gosh I don't think I've had such spiritual heights as I had last year,and I weep when I think how psychiatry as a science belittles,suppresses,destroys and negates it.I have always been highly intuitive,thousand year old secrets come to me,songs,stories,prophecies and riddles,lullabies,nursery rhymes,tales and tellings it all comes to me,goddesses embodied and moonlit mysteries yet the meds of psychiatry destroyed it all as not being worthy of discussion or power.I sometimes wonder about myself as a wise woman coming out of the woods or as heaven sent.I thought I wanted only the light of heaven and nothing more a life of light and happiness,cottages and babies and every good thing,tea and toast and sweet songs but I suddenly long for mania and mysteries,for the woods and the wise woman,to tell my fortune, to lead me back into the night,the magic of the moon.It could be the temper of the skies.My god the feminine world has so much spirit,magic,wisdom,feeling,heights,poetry,passion ,and mystery for us.
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