History of romance,Beatrix potter mode,babies and mothering
I watched myths,shamans and seers a ted talk about how people who are deeply intuitive and move in a world of spirits are treated outside the west vs in it.We live in a world that is entirely magical but noone seems to honour it.I watched too 'A very British romance' with Lucy worsley,a sort of history of romance in Britain,but couldn't watch all of it,when she started talking about novels and I realised how I can't feel the atmosphere or what novels evoke,or delve into them now I became upset.I think too I disagree with the idea that romance as we know it only started with novels.Love has been there since the beginning if you read ancient mythology from Ireland or Britain or even tribal myths people fall into deep love in them,there are all these tragic love stories.There is courtly love too of the Middle Ages.
I joined okcupid again because I decided on a whim I want some sort of love interest atm, I thought I never really try and maybe there is someone out there.You never know.I have about fifteen messages so far,boys into history.I roam around a bit online because I can't delve into my usual symbolism books,or things I love to study.I just want to be lost in my own world and my studies of antiquity again.I don't know how much I can do.I just miss it all terribly.
I spent some time looking at nursery things,Edwardian old world prints I'd love,olive,sage and Ivory,welsh wool blankets,indigo quilt I'd make.I thought I'd raise my child with such a profound knowledge of his heritage,I'd have an illustration of the Irish hero Chu chulainn on his wall to give him courage.
But I realised I really didn't have much want for babies anymore,I use to feel it,and I just adore babies, I am a very nurturing gentle person,a sweet mama type.But I realised I'd rather write books,poems,research and study,be completely immersed in my passions,my husband and our nest than be a mother.But there are plenty of women who do both,but I think pursuing your passions a child really gets neglected.My mother was very dedicated to her work, as a child I felt wholly neglected, I wouldn't do it to any child.
I also look at wedding things I can't help it! it's a nice distraction from everything to look at things like romantic elopements,choosing cakes,it's all so creative and it's just all so nesty.I forgot all my troubles for a few hours.Maybe it's because I can't do my creative pursuits.Im in a sort of Beatrix potter mode this morning everything soft pastel and sweet in the English countryside is appealing to me.England Is like an elixir to me right now.I looked up the car free island of Sark that I read about years ago.Ive been getting dressed up everyday despite being really tired and obviously in great mourning over everything,but it makes me feel better to put my favourite skirts and lockets on and go out into the fresh air.
I joined okcupid again because I decided on a whim I want some sort of love interest atm, I thought I never really try and maybe there is someone out there.You never know.I have about fifteen messages so far,boys into history.I roam around a bit online because I can't delve into my usual symbolism books,or things I love to study.I just want to be lost in my own world and my studies of antiquity again.I don't know how much I can do.I just miss it all terribly.
I spent some time looking at nursery things,Edwardian old world prints I'd love,olive,sage and Ivory,welsh wool blankets,indigo quilt I'd make.I thought I'd raise my child with such a profound knowledge of his heritage,I'd have an illustration of the Irish hero Chu chulainn on his wall to give him courage.
But I realised I really didn't have much want for babies anymore,I use to feel it,and I just adore babies, I am a very nurturing gentle person,a sweet mama type.But I realised I'd rather write books,poems,research and study,be completely immersed in my passions,my husband and our nest than be a mother.But there are plenty of women who do both,but I think pursuing your passions a child really gets neglected.My mother was very dedicated to her work, as a child I felt wholly neglected, I wouldn't do it to any child.
I also look at wedding things I can't help it! it's a nice distraction from everything to look at things like romantic elopements,choosing cakes,it's all so creative and it's just all so nesty.I forgot all my troubles for a few hours.Maybe it's because I can't do my creative pursuits.Im in a sort of Beatrix potter mode this morning everything soft pastel and sweet in the English countryside is appealing to me.England Is like an elixir to me right now.I looked up the car free island of Sark that I read about years ago.Ive been getting dressed up everyday despite being really tired and obviously in great mourning over everything,but it makes me feel better to put my favourite skirts and lockets on and go out into the fresh air.
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