Intuitive answers,crossing the veil and old times.
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Well after much thought and intuition I decided to not come off the med.I would be thrown into chaos if I did,not because that is often a state I fall into, but because the med causes bad withdrawl,sleep issues etc all of which make me susceptible to walking worlds,crossing the veil,entering the hedge - all of which mean entering the spirit world.Believe me it's incredible to do so,life changing to do so,in some ways I'm meant to do so.But it is also dangerous and usually leaves me losing everything.
That leaves me with just the constipation to deal with,there doesn't seem to be any way around it.I don't like my chances of fixing it or it changing on the med.But even being off the med can cause it to continue,it was when I withdrew from the med that it started and it just flipped some switch that controls that.One woman had the same problem after withdrawing from this med and it lasted years,only when she went back on the med did it go away.So coming off it isn't necessarily the answer.
I feel I made the right decision but I am still completely stressed about how I'm going to handle this side effect.I am in such an awful predicament.If I could just take the low dose I take every day and not have the side effect all my problems would be solved.I had years in which I could have been on this med and not suffered this but at those times I didn't feel I needed to be on it,trust now that I do It does this.
My god yesterday did I look on with envy at people who sleep perfectly every night and are so well.I can't even imagine anymore what it's like to not have all these problems.I still feel gloomy but think it's the med and major stress,for me to not enjoy tea is truly something,it's normally the cosiest most comfort in a cup thing a person can have.But at the moment nothing inspires or ignites for me.I hope it goes away soon.
I may buy a book today,I miss my old days when I was so well and would sit in the park everyday and have lunch and walk to the bookstore after,and while away with things I was passionate about.I may call and chat with a few people to get the support and advice I honestly need right now.I wished very much last night that I was married and had someone to see me through it all,to assure me it would be okay and to think more clearly for me when I can't.But oh well this is the dear and complex life I was given and I must honour it as I can.
Gloom.
Well after much thought and intuition I decided to not come off the med.I would be thrown into chaos if I did,not because that is often a state I fall into, but because the med causes bad withdrawl,sleep issues etc all of which make me susceptible to walking worlds,crossing the veil,entering the hedge - all of which mean entering the spirit world.Believe me it's incredible to do so,life changing to do so,in some ways I'm meant to do so.But it is also dangerous and usually leaves me losing everything.
That leaves me with just the constipation to deal with,there doesn't seem to be any way around it.I don't like my chances of fixing it or it changing on the med.But even being off the med can cause it to continue,it was when I withdrew from the med that it started and it just flipped some switch that controls that.One woman had the same problem after withdrawing from this med and it lasted years,only when she went back on the med did it go away.So coming off it isn't necessarily the answer.
I feel I made the right decision but I am still completely stressed about how I'm going to handle this side effect.I am in such an awful predicament.If I could just take the low dose I take every day and not have the side effect all my problems would be solved.I had years in which I could have been on this med and not suffered this but at those times I didn't feel I needed to be on it,trust now that I do It does this.
My god yesterday did I look on with envy at people who sleep perfectly every night and are so well.I can't even imagine anymore what it's like to not have all these problems.I still feel gloomy but think it's the med and major stress,for me to not enjoy tea is truly something,it's normally the cosiest most comfort in a cup thing a person can have.But at the moment nothing inspires or ignites for me.I hope it goes away soon.
I may buy a book today,I miss my old days when I was so well and would sit in the park everyday and have lunch and walk to the bookstore after,and while away with things I was passionate about.I may call and chat with a few people to get the support and advice I honestly need right now.I wished very much last night that I was married and had someone to see me through it all,to assure me it would be okay and to think more clearly for me when I can't.But oh well this is the dear and complex life I was given and I must honour it as I can.
Gloom.
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