Sad weeks,lost atmospheres and fearlessness
Posted 04-07-2017 at 03:54 PM by Katiethegreat
Such a sad few weeks that I barely know what to say,all the romance,atmosphere and happiness I've had this march just left and lots of trials etc.I don't feel like my usual 'flights of fancy' self,I feel dulled and without inspiration,anxious and despairing.
I don't know when it will lift truly,I go to do my usual things but the sweet atmosphere is gone.Im being so easy on myself because I go through so much that I don't write of here.
It all came back a little two days ago I was watching costume dramas and I was suddenly fixed on all the clothing I got so excited ready to write my novels again and so on but it didn't last,I guess it is the imbas forosnai.How lucky am I to have had three months of perfect romanticism and really pretty thoughts all the time.I was away in another more antiquated world and really watching costume dramas has kept that world with me.I really wish I could watch bbc history documentaries.
I did try to read my books and eat toast with butter and vintage cheddar(which is lovely),and I hope maybe this week the jollyness will return to me.I think of him quite a bit he is a snug thought but not much today.I feel better this morning I feel it will all be good again soon,I looked at my boards but couldn't get enthused about them.So strange to not even be able to enjoy my Celtic myths.I call this climate change.
I had ideas still for a little etsy store maybe parfums,maybe something to do with family history but really little businesses are far from my mind.
I just want to see what this time has for me,I want to get into my history studies again,I printed out my personal pantheon (of goddesses) to hang on the wall they are going to be there everyday to remind me of my own strength and power and my ability to continually rise up out of any darkness.
I don't know when it will lift truly,I go to do my usual things but the sweet atmosphere is gone.Im being so easy on myself because I go through so much that I don't write of here.
It all came back a little two days ago I was watching costume dramas and I was suddenly fixed on all the clothing I got so excited ready to write my novels again and so on but it didn't last,I guess it is the imbas forosnai.How lucky am I to have had three months of perfect romanticism and really pretty thoughts all the time.I was away in another more antiquated world and really watching costume dramas has kept that world with me.I really wish I could watch bbc history documentaries.
I did try to read my books and eat toast with butter and vintage cheddar(which is lovely),and I hope maybe this week the jollyness will return to me.I think of him quite a bit he is a snug thought but not much today.I feel better this morning I feel it will all be good again soon,I looked at my boards but couldn't get enthused about them.So strange to not even be able to enjoy my Celtic myths.I call this climate change.
I had ideas still for a little etsy store maybe parfums,maybe something to do with family history but really little businesses are far from my mind.
I just want to see what this time has for me,I want to get into my history studies again,I printed out my personal pantheon (of goddesses) to hang on the wall they are going to be there everyday to remind me of my own strength and power and my ability to continually rise up out of any darkness.
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