Getting better and looking at true healing.
Well I've been better, the drugs are working,but I wake up every morning feeling so toxic and my whole heart and soul against them in every way.feeling I have no choice but to take them.
I really feel so very conflicted and I definately don't feel the drugs can heal me in a deep way.I found the perfect shamaness to see this morning,in a tradition that I hold dear, who works with ancestors and all things I know would heal me and support me.
But I fear going to her - as those who practice the intuitive arts know everything about you.of it being too much of a risk.
But wanting desperately some advice,healing,help of any kind.
What a desolate and desperate situation to be in.
My best bet is to keep the dosage as low as possible and practice my own spiritual arts,I don't know what else I can do.I wondered what he would do in my situation,pondered,what I'd give for advice,anyones advice.
There's no proof if I saw her that any of the issues would go away,but it would certainly help in some way and heal me in some way.I really wanted to go through with it.
And today is Valentine's Day,I almost forgot,I'm alone and I don't think ever have I needed anyone more.I want to be like I was three weeks ago,baking jam drops,thinking of lovely cabins in the country and researching my romance novels,I don't want this at all.
I really feel so very conflicted and I definately don't feel the drugs can heal me in a deep way.I found the perfect shamaness to see this morning,in a tradition that I hold dear, who works with ancestors and all things I know would heal me and support me.
But I fear going to her - as those who practice the intuitive arts know everything about you.of it being too much of a risk.
But wanting desperately some advice,healing,help of any kind.
What a desolate and desperate situation to be in.
My best bet is to keep the dosage as low as possible and practice my own spiritual arts,I don't know what else I can do.I wondered what he would do in my situation,pondered,what I'd give for advice,anyones advice.
There's no proof if I saw her that any of the issues would go away,but it would certainly help in some way and heal me in some way.I really wanted to go through with it.
And today is Valentine's Day,I almost forgot,I'm alone and I don't think ever have I needed anyone more.I want to be like I was three weeks ago,baking jam drops,thinking of lovely cabins in the country and researching my romance novels,I don't want this at all.
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