Writing for Therapy
My head was buzzing like a maniac, constantly going over the same problem, thinking, analyzing, debating, discussing. I WAS TALKING TO MYSELF like a crazy person. 
I can't sleep, can't focus on work, & a restlessness took over me. For days I have not done anything productive but to think about my issue.
I knew how to handle this madness. I made a post on message board to talk it out. I jotted down some notes in my journal about this feeling (1-2 paragraph), I went for a quick walk outside. It was too cold for long walk so a quick 5 min walk around building. I grabbed myself a cup of tea & with a smile sat down at my computer to get some work done. BUT..but...... my mind wasn't clear.
I checked message board several times to see what people responded & my mind started again... thinking, thinking, thinking.. having debate, discussion with these online people who don't know me. I officially have gone crazy. 
I reach for my phone and message a close friend about my madness but she has her own problem & I decided she is not the right person for this.
After 2 days of this craziness. Of ignoring work and instead browsing online, reading articles on mindfulness, trying to calm my mind because I know the problem at hand is not as big as my mind made it out to be. But nothing can tame it down. I thought of writing blog here but I knew, nothing is as real as pen/paper. I finally grabbed my journal, went outside with the intention of finding a peaceful place to get lost in my thoughts. It was cold, so I decided my car is the best place. I sat in the back seat of my car, the leather seat was comforting & the sun beaming thru window made me relax. I picked up my pen & started writing. Not 1-2 paragraph but 2 pages of my feelings. When I thought I was done, I wrote yet another paragraph just to be 100% sure my head is empty. Everything I felt, everything I wanted to say was out there. I then read what I wrote and added one more paragraph with further comments.
Only then did I feel relived of this madness.
Writing, especially watching my pen form the letter one alphabet at a time is mindfulness and getting it all out of my tiny head & into paper is relieving
I can't sleep, can't focus on work, & a restlessness took over me. For days I have not done anything productive but to think about my issue. I knew how to handle this madness. I made a post on message board to talk it out. I jotted down some notes in my journal about this feeling (1-2 paragraph), I went for a quick walk outside. It was too cold for long walk so a quick 5 min walk around building. I grabbed myself a cup of tea & with a smile sat down at my computer to get some work done. BUT..but...... my mind wasn't clear.
I checked message board several times to see what people responded & my mind started again... thinking, thinking, thinking.. having debate, discussion with these online people who don't know me. I officially have gone crazy. I reach for my phone and message a close friend about my madness but she has her own problem & I decided she is not the right person for this. After 2 days of this craziness. Of ignoring work and instead browsing online, reading articles on mindfulness, trying to calm my mind because I know the problem at hand is not as big as my mind made it out to be. But nothing can tame it down. I thought of writing blog here but I knew, nothing is as real as pen/paper. I finally grabbed my journal, went outside with the intention of finding a peaceful place to get lost in my thoughts. It was cold, so I decided my car is the best place. I sat in the back seat of my car, the leather seat was comforting & the sun beaming thru window made me relax. I picked up my pen & started writing. Not 1-2 paragraph but 2 pages of my feelings. When I thought I was done, I wrote yet another paragraph just to be 100% sure my head is empty. Everything I felt, everything I wanted to say was out there. I then read what I wrote and added one more paragraph with further comments.
Only then did I feel relived of this madness.
Writing, especially watching my pen form the letter one alphabet at a time is mindfulness and getting it all out of my tiny head & into paper is relievingTotal Comments 4
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MY Head is Buzzing.
Tell me what you are seeing, what pictures you are creating, you see what you think, is what you feel. I tell this to my patients quite often, but, we continue to get stuck in our core thoughts. there exercises you can do to help you when you feel, out of balance. 1st thing, check your posture. judging by what you are describing, your muscles are tense and your breathing is either rapid or shallow. now go into a mirror, close your eyes, and think of a time, when you felt really good. Now, look at your posture and breathing, you see if you correct your posture, this will relax breath automatically, and this will change the pictures, and make better feelings. If you would like to have other helpful exercises, feel free to email me, Happy Holidays. :))Posted 12-21-2016 at 09:38 AM by NLPsychology
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Thank you for the tips. I actually made a therapy appointment after this feeling lingered around for few days. I get this out of balance feeling few times a year (2-3 times) and usually a day or 2 later it passes away. this time it was 4 days. I have not had another session yet but I was told it is a form of anxiety. Now that I read it, it might be.
I like your exercise, as I was reading your comment, I envisioned my trip to Bahamas sitting out in beach listening to waves for days. But in that moment, this exercise would have temporary made me feel better but soon after (few hours later at best) I would be back in my panic mood.Posted 12-22-2016 at 09:19 AM by keraT
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Yes me too when we have a trouble with me partner I will go a walk early morning and cars ,trucks drivers waving their hands saying hi my problems gone (hehehe)it made me smile a lot having exercise can lessen your stress and it made you confidentPosted 05-10-2017 at 05:13 PM by Tarajai
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I can tell you writing is a definite stress reliever, it's DEFENITLY my therapy, even when mad at a specific person or subject, write them a letter telling them how it is, even a personal issue you can't resolve write in letter form addressing the problem as a person go ahead tell that new expensive vacumn it's a useless piece of crap and a waste of time n energy,,,write all the mean things down about that user by friend u don't gave the guts to say to his face,,,,he never has to see it...but YOU will feel so much better retrieving it from your brain to your hand to paper,,,guaranteed,,,I do it all the time,
I challenged it many times, and 4 of those became published booksv,,,,, lolPosted 10-31-2017 at 02:46 AM by Looking4honesty
