10 months in.
Posted 07-30-2016 at 12:00 AM by Chowhound
Well....
10 months in. Getting a little too used to not hitting the snooze button in the morning.
Every Monday I wake up and think to myself, "how the F am I supposed to go back to the grind"
The hardest part of being off of work this long is the realization that the pain of going back to work is going to worse than the two weeks we used to have to struggle with.
I've figured I'll just wait to the nastiness of the summer and the heat being over then I'll make some calls and go back..... that is what I tell myself right now, late July...
I wonder what story I'll give myself late Aug??? Will it be as convincing? I do admit it would be nice to get a bit of that structure back and of course having money coming in instead of going out is always a plus. I've spent 27 yrs identifying with work, with it being my sense of who I am as a man, who I am as a person. Being a guy with no job has been a real learning experience in terms of indentity in terms of realizing who I actually am. I sometimes brag on CD about what a big dawg I am, citing stats about my income, my net worth, my ego is flailing. I'm glad I went though this time off, it made me realize that I'm not ****, I'm just a guy that will be dead at some point, just like the rest of us and hopefully the best I can hope for is that someone who knew me didn't think I was a total azzhole.
LOL... lofty goals.... just try to not be a total azzhole.
Sounds good right about now. Time will tell, and maybe I'll leave enough room on the headstone for someone to validate it.....
10 months in. Getting a little too used to not hitting the snooze button in the morning.
Every Monday I wake up and think to myself, "how the F am I supposed to go back to the grind"
The hardest part of being off of work this long is the realization that the pain of going back to work is going to worse than the two weeks we used to have to struggle with.
I've figured I'll just wait to the nastiness of the summer and the heat being over then I'll make some calls and go back..... that is what I tell myself right now, late July...
I wonder what story I'll give myself late Aug??? Will it be as convincing? I do admit it would be nice to get a bit of that structure back and of course having money coming in instead of going out is always a plus. I've spent 27 yrs identifying with work, with it being my sense of who I am as a man, who I am as a person. Being a guy with no job has been a real learning experience in terms of indentity in terms of realizing who I actually am. I sometimes brag on CD about what a big dawg I am, citing stats about my income, my net worth, my ego is flailing. I'm glad I went though this time off, it made me realize that I'm not ****, I'm just a guy that will be dead at some point, just like the rest of us and hopefully the best I can hope for is that someone who knew me didn't think I was a total azzhole.
LOL... lofty goals.... just try to not be a total azzhole.
Sounds good right about now. Time will tell, and maybe I'll leave enough room on the headstone for someone to validate it.....
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