This blog is an open detailing of my recovery from an intense emotional affair. It has been said that in order to recover from an affair, whether physical or not, one must not be afraid to write down feelings. By being open with my feelings and not hiding them anymore, I am making a effort to hold myself accountable for my affair. This is an ongoing recovery and I have no clue how it will play out. But I need to share, to process what I've done, and to learn how to forgive myself.
Today Is a Good Day
Posted 10-20-2015 at 10:46 AM by April R
So OG and I have been able to talk and set limitations and boundaries. We have been open and honest with each other about our feelings and our mutual commitment to our marriages and spouses. I realize that my marriage and my husband deserve my attention without my mind and heart being somewhere else all the time. I am assured that OG won't abandon me, so I am free to devote my time to my husband and family.
My hubs has knee surgery on Friday and I need to be there for him 100%. He is going to need me to be there to take care of him for a few days until he is comfortable enough to look after himself. He is the kind of guy who won't admit he needs help and will try to push himself too hard too quickly. He's stubborn like that.
I had a great bit of news yesterday. I've been offered a part time contract sales position. I would work on my own schedule and take only the clients already assigned to me, so it is something I can do to earn a little extra to help out with our expenses and hopefully start putting aside for savings. I've been out of work for over a year now and would like to get back doing something to help out other than childcare and housework. I think having a job outside the house will also help with keeping OG off my mind.
I still care very deeply about him and look on our time with affection, and I always will. But, the reality of our current commitments prevents us from being anything more to each other since we are both in agreement an affair isn't a viable option. I am glad he was a much stronger person than I was and was able to keep me from making a mistake that would have hurt our families and likely driven OG away.
Things are as they should be right now and I can't ask for anything more.
My hubs has knee surgery on Friday and I need to be there for him 100%. He is going to need me to be there to take care of him for a few days until he is comfortable enough to look after himself. He is the kind of guy who won't admit he needs help and will try to push himself too hard too quickly. He's stubborn like that.
I had a great bit of news yesterday. I've been offered a part time contract sales position. I would work on my own schedule and take only the clients already assigned to me, so it is something I can do to earn a little extra to help out with our expenses and hopefully start putting aside for savings. I've been out of work for over a year now and would like to get back doing something to help out other than childcare and housework. I think having a job outside the house will also help with keeping OG off my mind.
I still care very deeply about him and look on our time with affection, and I always will. But, the reality of our current commitments prevents us from being anything more to each other since we are both in agreement an affair isn't a viable option. I am glad he was a much stronger person than I was and was able to keep me from making a mistake that would have hurt our families and likely driven OG away.
Things are as they should be right now and I can't ask for anything more.
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Congrats!
I hope all works out for you and your hubby. It still feels like there is a hole in your relationship with him that needs to be addressed, but I'm glad things are looking up.Posted 10-22-2015 at 03:49 PM by reds37win
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Thanks.Quote:Originally Posted by reds37win
Congrats!
I hope all works out for you and your hubby. It still feels like there is a hole in your relationship with him that needs to be addressed, but I'm glad things are looking up.
Today was a big set back. I feel horrible. I really hope this is only temporary.Posted 10-23-2015 at 01:12 AM by April R
