Sunday ~~ July 26, 2015 ~~ Unfamiliar Feelings are very hard to describe...
Posted 07-26-2015 at 09:44 PM by CSD610
I do not think there are actual words to describe how I have been feeling the last couple of days since the offer was accepted for the home we are going to move into in 3 weeks.
It is a combination of shock, joy, sadness, surreal and total disbelief that this has happened. There are other feelings mixed in there as well but I am unsure how to describe them in words.
Feelings have been about other areas of my life as well and I am not sure how to deal with those feelings outside of I don't really care.
I do sort of but I don't because at the end of the day when that little red X in the top right corner is clicked on and the lid to the lap top gets closed everything online goes away until the next time I open the lid to the lap top.
I have told Mr. CSD about a couple of things over the last couple of weeks but it really has not gone much further than that. I am curious what the general issue is however, not curious enough to lose any sleep over some perceived wrong that I have done to someone. So it was worth a mention to Mr. CSD but that is all.
The online world is an odd place because it is so anonymous and the word warriors are so tough online. Are they really so tough in person? Who knows and honestly who cares.
I am who I am everywhere but there are so few who are like that online.
I thought I had found a good place to relax and enjoy the anonymous company online but over time that has proven to not be completely true overall so I just do not partake much any longer.
We (Mr. CSD and I) do many things very differently than what some parts of society have deemed is appropriate, acceptable and must be done. I could care less about what some parts of society thinks is important and I refuse to change myself to please some anonymous online persona.
I would hope that everyone who is online is real online and in person but I am sure there is a very high percentage that are not.
So basically I'm here for the popcorn and the blog and to help someone or aggrivate them with the words I write. How they interpret those words is their choice and there is nothing I can do to change that nor do I care enough to want to change it.
I am completely overwhelmed with a several page long list of things I have to get done in 3 weeks time to be prepared to move into our home. I physically cannot get a lot done throughout the day because of my illness which is a day to day "let's see how it goes" illness. There is no set in stone affects from day to day. There is no set in stone affects from moment to moment and life is very hard to plan when one does not have the slighest clue how they are going to feel the next moment.
Do you go through life in moments or do you go through life in longer time frames? Have you really ever thought about the moments of your life and how things can and do change from moment to moment, every moment of every day of your life.
Unless you are standing still you are in a different place every moment of every day but even standing still the moments are still moving forward whether you are or not.
Then when you do physically move forward are you getting ahead, catching up or still behind your moments. Are these moments only in your mind when you are not moving but physical when you are moving.
What a thought to end with aye?
A few more thoughts to ponder if you choose:
Do you like peas?
Do you eat peas cold out of the can or warned up?
Do you put real butter on your peas?
Do you like Irish Butter?
Have you ever had Amish made butter?
Do you know that butter comes from cows?
As usual I wish you restful sleep and peaceful dreams when it comes time for you to wander your timbers of slumber.
It is a combination of shock, joy, sadness, surreal and total disbelief that this has happened. There are other feelings mixed in there as well but I am unsure how to describe them in words.
Feelings have been about other areas of my life as well and I am not sure how to deal with those feelings outside of I don't really care.
I do sort of but I don't because at the end of the day when that little red X in the top right corner is clicked on and the lid to the lap top gets closed everything online goes away until the next time I open the lid to the lap top.
I have told Mr. CSD about a couple of things over the last couple of weeks but it really has not gone much further than that. I am curious what the general issue is however, not curious enough to lose any sleep over some perceived wrong that I have done to someone. So it was worth a mention to Mr. CSD but that is all.
The online world is an odd place because it is so anonymous and the word warriors are so tough online. Are they really so tough in person? Who knows and honestly who cares.
I am who I am everywhere but there are so few who are like that online.
I thought I had found a good place to relax and enjoy the anonymous company online but over time that has proven to not be completely true overall so I just do not partake much any longer.
We (Mr. CSD and I) do many things very differently than what some parts of society have deemed is appropriate, acceptable and must be done. I could care less about what some parts of society thinks is important and I refuse to change myself to please some anonymous online persona.
I would hope that everyone who is online is real online and in person but I am sure there is a very high percentage that are not.
So basically I'm here for the popcorn and the blog and to help someone or aggrivate them with the words I write. How they interpret those words is their choice and there is nothing I can do to change that nor do I care enough to want to change it.
I am completely overwhelmed with a several page long list of things I have to get done in 3 weeks time to be prepared to move into our home. I physically cannot get a lot done throughout the day because of my illness which is a day to day "let's see how it goes" illness. There is no set in stone affects from day to day. There is no set in stone affects from moment to moment and life is very hard to plan when one does not have the slighest clue how they are going to feel the next moment.
Do you go through life in moments or do you go through life in longer time frames? Have you really ever thought about the moments of your life and how things can and do change from moment to moment, every moment of every day of your life.
Unless you are standing still you are in a different place every moment of every day but even standing still the moments are still moving forward whether you are or not.
Then when you do physically move forward are you getting ahead, catching up or still behind your moments. Are these moments only in your mind when you are not moving but physical when you are moving.
What a thought to end with aye?
A few more thoughts to ponder if you choose:
Do you like peas?
Do you eat peas cold out of the can or warned up?
Do you put real butter on your peas?
Do you like Irish Butter?
Have you ever had Amish made butter?
Do you know that butter comes from cows?
As usual I wish you restful sleep and peaceful dreams when it comes time for you to wander your timbers of slumber.
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I like you BECAUSE of your replies on the forum threads. "Great minds think alike" and we are of very similiar mindsets. Don't let unknown posters/people get you down. I report any that try to stir up trouble or incite others. Like I tell my granddaughters....."Mimi don't play that game." Keep posting like you do and I will keep repping you.
I have backed off participating somewhat due to the 2 infractions I got out of the blue. Both took me by surprise since I have always been a follower of rules, since I was little. One was because I posted the same information in several threads (by a mod I had never heard of), the second I made mention I thought a new post was a troll post, so because I used the word "troll". This from a popular mod that I had a few Public messages with.
DM when you are up to it, OK? Let me know how you are.
A few more thoughts to ponder if you choose:
Do you like peas? yes, especially Green Giant frozen peas. They taste fresher than from the can.
Do you eat peas cold out of the can or warned up? I warm them for a meal but will eat a spoonful right from the can after opening.
Do you put real butter on your peas? Is there anything else? Nothing like REAL butter.
Do you like Irish Butter? yes. My niece visits Ireland often, would move if she could. She buys Irish foods here so I have tried several things Irish.
Have you ever had Amish made butter? No I have not. But I LOVE their furniture. OT, I know.
Do you know that butter comes from cows? Yes. I don't eat dairy from any source other than cows.
As usual I wish you restful sleep and peaceful dreams when it comes time for you to wander your timbers of slumber. My favorite place to be since emerging from my personal tribulation is in my bed, which is safe and warm and comfortable. I wish you peaceful sleep every night, I know you need it.Posted 03-23-2016 at 08:34 PM by Lodestar 77
Updated 03-23-2016 at 08:49 PM by Lodestar 77
