Sunday ~~ September 14, 2014 ~~ I had a realization today....
Posted 09-14-2014 at 02:57 AM by CSD610
It will seem odd or utter nonsense to those who don't understand but those who do will understand exactly what I am talking about.
The realization today was that my OCD is getting worse as I get older and I am not comfortable with that at all. I was hoping that I had controlled it enough over the years to make a difference but it appears I really haven't. This realization came about because of crackers and cheese. Yes, food, a simple snack that became complicated and caused this dilemma that I faced that ended with the realization.
So the story goes, I did not have supper this evening. I didn't really feel well but I only eat when I am hungry and when I am full I quit eating most of the time. Anyway, I was a bit hungry and wanted a simple snack right before I go to bed instead of an actual meal since it is 3:28 am.
I chose crackers and cheese because it is no cook, little crumbs, finger food and on the lighter side. So I get out the slices of cheese then I go and get the crackers and I take out the exact amount of crackers I need. The crackers are saltines with the little break me here dotted line so 1 cracker becomes 2. So I am sitting at my desk and I start breaking crackers in 1/2 and one does not break evenly across the break me here line.
For normal people this is not an issue however I was left with the dilemma of putting away cheese because now I have more cheese than crackers. Then again I could go get new crackers and give the uneven broken ones to Walter (the dog) or I could just put it all back and have a glass of milk then go to bed.
I am not kidding when I sit here and write that this caused quite a dilemma for me. The crackers broke uneven that is all. This fact does not change the taste of the cracker or the texture or the perfect plate for one square of cheese but it wasn't right. The alignment of the crackers would all be uneven because of the part that did not break properly which would throw off the alignment of the stack of crackers I was going to make with the squares of cheese in the center of each crackers square.
As I sit here mulling over this dilemma and trying to decide what to do my stomach is growling at me because it is empty and needs something. Then myself said to me "it is just an uneven cracker." Then me said to myself, I know but it is uneven and it isn't right. Then myself said to me "Let's see what I thinks about all of this".
Well "I" is more often than not my closer to normal logical brain matter and I said to me and myself, "It's okay, the crackers do not mind being uneven and we need some sort of nourishment very soon.".
Then end result is that I did not go and get new crackers so Walter (the dog) did not get a cracker bonus today and much to my chagrin I ate the uneven crackers with cheese on each one and the texture and flavor was the same.
So that is my story and I know it will be trivial and silly to some but to those who understand boy do they understand. They also understand how tough it can be to make the decision to go forward and honestly once that decision is made you really have no idea what the reaction to that is going to be. That can go any which way including loose.
I can't believe it is Sunday already, it seems like I just wrote the last blog a couple days ago, not 7 days ago. The forum has been pretty quiet overall and the new posters are coming up with some odd yet dull stories for their first thread. I think I have gotten to the point that I am bored enough with it all that it is no longer even mildly entertaining. My answer to that dilemma is to ban myself for the most part from that part of the forum. It is best that way but I do still wander down the hall in the lobby just to see what each door says.
Other than that it should prove to be a dull rest of the weekend around our home which we love.
My Husband has a task tomorrow that he does not want to complete but it has to be done.
I know he will put it off until he can no longer put it off then it will be done, over and we will move forward once again.
Monday he has an appointment with the Surgeon so we may get an idea of when the next surgery is to remove the plate and screws currently in his arm. We will both be glad when that is done and he can start the physical therapy again.
We have a birthday party coming up on September 21, 2014, one of our grandsons is going to be 9. We also have a wedding reception on October 4, 2014. One of our son's wife will be here from China so we will get to finally meet her and celebrate their marriage.
Unfortunately she will only be able to stay for a couple weeks then she will have to return to China. She has not been approved to leave China and stay in the USA. We are not sure when that will happen but we are guessing it will be at least another year if not 2 years.
I am going to get some sewing done later today and I am not sure how much sewing but I hope to at least get the curtains for the little bedroom started, finished and put up. Then I probably should get the curtains for the kitchen started, finished and put up as well. If I really wanted to I could get all of the curtains done for the house but I am not really that motivated to cover the windows.
We have been here 4 years and only have curtains on our bedroom windows and the bathroom window and now one of the windows in the little bedroom. Otherwise, no curtains but when you live in the country curtains are not really that important if you are us. If you are not us then I imagine curtains may be more important to you.
Well my snack is gone, the dilemma is over for the most part and I believe I have babbled on long enough for one wee hours of the day.
I will leave you with a couple thoughts to ponder if you choose to do so:
Do you ever wonder how the colors for the flag were actually picked?
Does your coffee get better, worse or stay the same when you let it sit long enough to get cold?
Do you like the video by Lauren Alaina made for her song "Georgia Peaches"?
Can you see the top of your desk, the bottom of your glass and your feet while standing up?
As usual I wish you restful sleep and peaceful dreams when it comes time for you to wander your timbers of slumber....
The realization today was that my OCD is getting worse as I get older and I am not comfortable with that at all. I was hoping that I had controlled it enough over the years to make a difference but it appears I really haven't. This realization came about because of crackers and cheese. Yes, food, a simple snack that became complicated and caused this dilemma that I faced that ended with the realization.
So the story goes, I did not have supper this evening. I didn't really feel well but I only eat when I am hungry and when I am full I quit eating most of the time. Anyway, I was a bit hungry and wanted a simple snack right before I go to bed instead of an actual meal since it is 3:28 am.
I chose crackers and cheese because it is no cook, little crumbs, finger food and on the lighter side. So I get out the slices of cheese then I go and get the crackers and I take out the exact amount of crackers I need. The crackers are saltines with the little break me here dotted line so 1 cracker becomes 2. So I am sitting at my desk and I start breaking crackers in 1/2 and one does not break evenly across the break me here line.
For normal people this is not an issue however I was left with the dilemma of putting away cheese because now I have more cheese than crackers. Then again I could go get new crackers and give the uneven broken ones to Walter (the dog) or I could just put it all back and have a glass of milk then go to bed.
I am not kidding when I sit here and write that this caused quite a dilemma for me. The crackers broke uneven that is all. This fact does not change the taste of the cracker or the texture or the perfect plate for one square of cheese but it wasn't right. The alignment of the crackers would all be uneven because of the part that did not break properly which would throw off the alignment of the stack of crackers I was going to make with the squares of cheese in the center of each crackers square.
As I sit here mulling over this dilemma and trying to decide what to do my stomach is growling at me because it is empty and needs something. Then myself said to me "it is just an uneven cracker." Then me said to myself, I know but it is uneven and it isn't right. Then myself said to me "Let's see what I thinks about all of this".
Well "I" is more often than not my closer to normal logical brain matter and I said to me and myself, "It's okay, the crackers do not mind being uneven and we need some sort of nourishment very soon.".
Then end result is that I did not go and get new crackers so Walter (the dog) did not get a cracker bonus today and much to my chagrin I ate the uneven crackers with cheese on each one and the texture and flavor was the same.
So that is my story and I know it will be trivial and silly to some but to those who understand boy do they understand. They also understand how tough it can be to make the decision to go forward and honestly once that decision is made you really have no idea what the reaction to that is going to be. That can go any which way including loose.
I can't believe it is Sunday already, it seems like I just wrote the last blog a couple days ago, not 7 days ago. The forum has been pretty quiet overall and the new posters are coming up with some odd yet dull stories for their first thread. I think I have gotten to the point that I am bored enough with it all that it is no longer even mildly entertaining. My answer to that dilemma is to ban myself for the most part from that part of the forum. It is best that way but I do still wander down the hall in the lobby just to see what each door says.
Other than that it should prove to be a dull rest of the weekend around our home which we love.
My Husband has a task tomorrow that he does not want to complete but it has to be done.
I know he will put it off until he can no longer put it off then it will be done, over and we will move forward once again.
Monday he has an appointment with the Surgeon so we may get an idea of when the next surgery is to remove the plate and screws currently in his arm. We will both be glad when that is done and he can start the physical therapy again.
We have a birthday party coming up on September 21, 2014, one of our grandsons is going to be 9. We also have a wedding reception on October 4, 2014. One of our son's wife will be here from China so we will get to finally meet her and celebrate their marriage.
Unfortunately she will only be able to stay for a couple weeks then she will have to return to China. She has not been approved to leave China and stay in the USA. We are not sure when that will happen but we are guessing it will be at least another year if not 2 years.
I am going to get some sewing done later today and I am not sure how much sewing but I hope to at least get the curtains for the little bedroom started, finished and put up. Then I probably should get the curtains for the kitchen started, finished and put up as well. If I really wanted to I could get all of the curtains done for the house but I am not really that motivated to cover the windows.
We have been here 4 years and only have curtains on our bedroom windows and the bathroom window and now one of the windows in the little bedroom. Otherwise, no curtains but when you live in the country curtains are not really that important if you are us. If you are not us then I imagine curtains may be more important to you.
Well my snack is gone, the dilemma is over for the most part and I believe I have babbled on long enough for one wee hours of the day.
I will leave you with a couple thoughts to ponder if you choose to do so:
Do you ever wonder how the colors for the flag were actually picked?
Does your coffee get better, worse or stay the same when you let it sit long enough to get cold?
Do you like the video by Lauren Alaina made for her song "Georgia Peaches"?
Can you see the top of your desk, the bottom of your glass and your feet while standing up?
As usual I wish you restful sleep and peaceful dreams when it comes time for you to wander your timbers of slumber....
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