Friday ~~ September 5, 2014 ~~ I am writing with my Soul full of turmoil....

I don't know how many of you follow posts and threads on the forum but for those of you who do not I will briefly explain why my Soul is in such turmoil.

We have a friend who has a son who is 15 years old. This son is a wonderful young man, bright, funny, respectful, and cute as can be and he has Cancer. He has been fighting it for a bit over a year now and he is losing this battle very quickly and it is heart wrenching.

The emotional roller coaster we (my Husband & I) have been on is terrible but we cannot even fathom what this child and his family are going through.

Talk about putting things into perspective immediately when you find out this child is terminal. He will not grow up, he will not become a legal adult, he will die a minor. He will not go to Prom, he will not get a legal driver's license, he will not get married, have a child, get a job, go to college, hades, he won't even finish high school.

How trivial do things become when faced with this reality? How trivial is it that you are a bit short on money and can't buy that Starbucks Latte, extra foam, soy whipped cream, with mocha, hocha and frou frou?

Are things in life really that important when compared to a situation like this? In our world, material things are not that important anyway and even less after a life altering situation.
No we are not related to this child in any way, shape or form but we know him and his Father and his illness is affecting us directly.

That may sound odd however it is true because his Father works for my company. I say "my" company because it is "my" company, my Husband and I do not own this company together. He is my unofficial consultant but I actually own everything. That is beside the point but I wanted it to be understood why I refer to it as "my" company.

Anyway, the direct affect is that this child's Father has not been working and when there is no working there is no income/cash flow. This is where the problem lies, how to be compassionate yet keep my business afloat.

Talk about a tough position to be in and we have been muddling through so far. We have assured this child's Father that he does have a job waiting for him, we will not fire him. He needs to be with his son and his son needs to be with his Father. We understand that but we also know the reality of our situation is that we have a business to run.

What we have decided to do is hire another 2 more people. One temporarily and one permanent. That way our temporary person who will be on a contract will know up front that the position is only temporary and it will not become permanent. Then the other one will be permanent and not on contract.

Is it fair? I really don't know but I will not fire the employee with the sick child. That will not happen, obviously he won't be paid because we do not do paid sick time. This is a very small company and our employee's are sort of contractual but not exactly. I know it is confusing but too detailed to get into here and now.

Anyway, I feel we are doing the right thing and honestly I somewhat hope we can keep the temporary person permanently but there is no guarantee of that happening so I won't even mention that until I know for sure that will work out. It is an equipment issue and unless I purchase more equipment the position will remain temporary.

So, our Souls are heavy with grief and turmoil and just generally being unsure if we are actually doing things the right way. Time will tell I guess.

Now on to other less important daily living issues. I have a cold and it is getting worse by the moment and there is nothing I can do but suffer through it and use every tissue we have in the house.

I am still scanning documents and shredding them which I will continue to do until the last document is scanned and shredded which I'm sure will take more than a few days.

Our hound Walter is getting older every day and I do not look forward to the day he goes to Heaven. Our girls (cats) are as silly now as they have been since we brought them in to share out home and they do love that dog.

Otherwise I've been sewing a wee bit the last couple of days and I have 2 projects I would like to finish tomorrow so I hope I am feeling up to getting those finished.

I guess I am done for now, my mind is wandering but there is no specific destination being sought so I will leave you with a few thoughts to ponder if you choose to.

Why haven't you looked into the mirror and told yourself you are beautiful?

Do you love cats?

Are beets part of your diet at any time?

Do your socks always match?

Do you prefer paper, plastic or bring your own grocery/shopping bags?

Is your favorite color warm or cold?

Do you like the song Drops of Jupiter by Train?

As usual I wish you restful sleep and peaceful dreams when it comes time for you to wander your timbers of slumber.......