Air Condition Season and Longer Nights
Posted 06-04-2014 at 12:59 PM by jessxwrites89
This is from last night. I am thinking about putting the memory of nan into a book I am writing about her and childhood experiences. What do you think?
We put on our air conditioning today. It got up to 87 degrees today with a feel of 95 degrees; even with the rain and down pours, it's still hot. According to a weather website, it's 70 degrees and it's four minutes after nine in the evening. I really dislike warm weather because it makes me feel sick. I'm generally hot and this isn't welcomed. I think I feel hot all the time because of my thyroid. I'm not sure if there is anything that can be done (I'm already on thyroid hormone and my levels are better... but I was always a warm person before the thyroid issues). Anyway, we turned on the air because my dad and long haired cat can't stand the heat either.
I always notice around this time, the sun sets around 8 pm. My weather app called Weather Whiskers thinks the sun sets here and in Detroit/Roseville, MI around 7pm. I notice it starts getting darker earlier around August before we turn the clocks back. I love when it gets dark early, but it's nice to go out for a walk at 7 or 7:30 pm in the summer. It's cooler. I remember when nan was still alive, I would always take a quick walk near her house, then go back to take a shower. We would always sit on the red porch and watch the sun set and her neighbor's cats. Then we would go back inside and watch TV in the comfort of the air conditioning. In the early to mid 2000s we would watch Golden Girls. Later on, we would just watch whatever. I remember the first summer I started working at the school, we'd go to bed early so she could take me to the bus at 5:30 for the 6 am bus to be at work by 7 am.
I really miss her. I miss her terribly. In the summer of 2012 that's when she was diagnosed with lung cancer. She was a survivor, but for some reason her doctor didn't keep on checking up on her. She was healthy, I guess that's why. It was too late when they caught it came back. Sadly, my thyroid was at its lowest and the psych meds weren't helping me at all. I was angry and lashed out at her. I didn't stay with her that much. Looking back, I wish I wasn't so dang angry. I guess I was angry too because I knew she was going to die and I was going to lose my best friend. We started spending more time after I got back from my Wisconsin trip at the end of August and when school started. But, boy do I still miss her. I actually started making a collage to hang up when I move.
I didn't intend to get on the subject of nan, but I guess this time of year just brings back a lot of memories because after I aged out of summer camp in 2001, I spent my summers with nan, then when I got work, I spent evenings with her. I was watching Sarah & Duck and the moon's saying summed up how I feel about postponing my relocation for a few months (again):
Moon: why so glum, Sarah?
Sarah: They didn't have my wind up penguin!
Moon: Oh dear, they're always running out of wind up penguins in that place! You know, I found a really nice spoon today. I liked it so much, I bought two! Would you like one?
Sarah:It's a wind up spoon! Thank you, Moon!
Moon: It was my pleasure, Sarah.
I guess it hit me because even though I'm sad about this, it's not a forever thing... but a temporary thing for some extra cash (I applied at two places today, one of the places had a 6 month transfer policy, the other didn't... I hope to get something that doesn't have a policy because I'd like to transfer at any time) while I look for employment in Michigan. I suppose those wait could mean something awesome is in store in Michigan and it's a way to finance my dream. I guess I shouldn't be so glum... like the Moon suggests. Yes, this is why I like children's shows at times! Fingers crossed for something here and then something to pop up in Michigan!
We put on our air conditioning today. It got up to 87 degrees today with a feel of 95 degrees; even with the rain and down pours, it's still hot. According to a weather website, it's 70 degrees and it's four minutes after nine in the evening. I really dislike warm weather because it makes me feel sick. I'm generally hot and this isn't welcomed. I think I feel hot all the time because of my thyroid. I'm not sure if there is anything that can be done (I'm already on thyroid hormone and my levels are better... but I was always a warm person before the thyroid issues). Anyway, we turned on the air because my dad and long haired cat can't stand the heat either.
I always notice around this time, the sun sets around 8 pm. My weather app called Weather Whiskers thinks the sun sets here and in Detroit/Roseville, MI around 7pm. I notice it starts getting darker earlier around August before we turn the clocks back. I love when it gets dark early, but it's nice to go out for a walk at 7 or 7:30 pm in the summer. It's cooler. I remember when nan was still alive, I would always take a quick walk near her house, then go back to take a shower. We would always sit on the red porch and watch the sun set and her neighbor's cats. Then we would go back inside and watch TV in the comfort of the air conditioning. In the early to mid 2000s we would watch Golden Girls. Later on, we would just watch whatever. I remember the first summer I started working at the school, we'd go to bed early so she could take me to the bus at 5:30 for the 6 am bus to be at work by 7 am.
I really miss her. I miss her terribly. In the summer of 2012 that's when she was diagnosed with lung cancer. She was a survivor, but for some reason her doctor didn't keep on checking up on her. She was healthy, I guess that's why. It was too late when they caught it came back. Sadly, my thyroid was at its lowest and the psych meds weren't helping me at all. I was angry and lashed out at her. I didn't stay with her that much. Looking back, I wish I wasn't so dang angry. I guess I was angry too because I knew she was going to die and I was going to lose my best friend. We started spending more time after I got back from my Wisconsin trip at the end of August and when school started. But, boy do I still miss her. I actually started making a collage to hang up when I move.
I didn't intend to get on the subject of nan, but I guess this time of year just brings back a lot of memories because after I aged out of summer camp in 2001, I spent my summers with nan, then when I got work, I spent evenings with her. I was watching Sarah & Duck and the moon's saying summed up how I feel about postponing my relocation for a few months (again):
Moon: why so glum, Sarah?
Sarah: They didn't have my wind up penguin!
Moon: Oh dear, they're always running out of wind up penguins in that place! You know, I found a really nice spoon today. I liked it so much, I bought two! Would you like one?
Sarah:It's a wind up spoon! Thank you, Moon!
Moon: It was my pleasure, Sarah.
I guess it hit me because even though I'm sad about this, it's not a forever thing... but a temporary thing for some extra cash (I applied at two places today, one of the places had a 6 month transfer policy, the other didn't... I hope to get something that doesn't have a policy because I'd like to transfer at any time) while I look for employment in Michigan. I suppose those wait could mean something awesome is in store in Michigan and it's a way to finance my dream. I guess I shouldn't be so glum... like the Moon suggests. Yes, this is why I like children's shows at times! Fingers crossed for something here and then something to pop up in Michigan!
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