Stings, don't it?
A crap day today!
My ex and I have had mutual friends on FB. I noticed where they have recently deleted some of my comments on their posts where my ex has also left comments. My comments didn't include her! This is amazingly petty, but wow! It sure made me feel secluded!! I've attempted to be above all pettiness while we separated. I'm trying to be a good sport. I'm trying to show that I'm tough and I'm not affected by this but damn! It hurts! And meanwhile, she is posting all these stupid inspirational sayings and quotes, and it is such a sham!! Everybody has rallied behind her and is being so supportive of her and her new challenge of being a single mom again! that's great! I wish she would have invested half the amount of time in our marriage as she is drumming up support for the plight she has suddenly found herself in! Found herself in? She created this situation! What a crock!!
I did a poor job of making new friends while I was married. I'm not one to allow to many others to get close any way, to be shunned by the few that I have, it just sucks.
What ever.
I also had to face the cold reality that my radio station changed formats I guess on New Years! What the deuce!! Now there are 5 stations playing alternative and Top 40! 1 country, 1 R&B!! They took my talk radio, then my metal station! The whole world is conspiring to remove everything I enjoy this year!
Well Bring the best you got!! I don't need any of it!! I've pulled myself up from much further down, and made much, starting with much less!
Party on Wayne! Party on Garth!
Smells like anger in here
I'm going to rant a little more. I've been trying to stay positive most days but screw it.
I resent having to sign up for this mandatory health care trap. There have been a couple times where I could have qualified and used government assistance and I instead chose to work harder and NOT rely on the system. I had great insurance for the birth of my kids, and gratefully, the passing of my wife. But in the past 10 years, I'm more than happy to come out of pocket for health needs as opposed to paying premiums. Most of the time when I need to go to an emergency room, it worked out just fine with some duct tape and staples. It just seems like legalized extortion.
Everyday I wake up, my biggest battle is with myself. It would be so easy to slip into a comfort zone where I just don't give a damn about the whole world.
You know what really makes me insane? Almost everything I know about what right and wrong I learned from Goofus and Gallant from Highlights. Then it was the Brady Bunch, and Little House on the Prairie, The Dad on Growing Pains, and Heathcliff Huxtable. This is what I try to emulate. This is what I try to attain. I sure don't have the peace that any of those characters have. It's like having to bail out the boat every morning before I can go out with the other fishermen.
It's stupid.
To Anonymous-I know who you are, HAHAHA you're camouflage is awful! But I appreciate your supportive words and sentiments. Thank you
My ex and I have had mutual friends on FB. I noticed where they have recently deleted some of my comments on their posts where my ex has also left comments. My comments didn't include her! This is amazingly petty, but wow! It sure made me feel secluded!! I've attempted to be above all pettiness while we separated. I'm trying to be a good sport. I'm trying to show that I'm tough and I'm not affected by this but damn! It hurts! And meanwhile, she is posting all these stupid inspirational sayings and quotes, and it is such a sham!! Everybody has rallied behind her and is being so supportive of her and her new challenge of being a single mom again! that's great! I wish she would have invested half the amount of time in our marriage as she is drumming up support for the plight she has suddenly found herself in! Found herself in? She created this situation! What a crock!!
I did a poor job of making new friends while I was married. I'm not one to allow to many others to get close any way, to be shunned by the few that I have, it just sucks.
What ever.
I also had to face the cold reality that my radio station changed formats I guess on New Years! What the deuce!! Now there are 5 stations playing alternative and Top 40! 1 country, 1 R&B!! They took my talk radio, then my metal station! The whole world is conspiring to remove everything I enjoy this year!
Well Bring the best you got!! I don't need any of it!! I've pulled myself up from much further down, and made much, starting with much less!
Party on Wayne! Party on Garth!
Smells like anger in here
I'm going to rant a little more. I've been trying to stay positive most days but screw it.
I resent having to sign up for this mandatory health care trap. There have been a couple times where I could have qualified and used government assistance and I instead chose to work harder and NOT rely on the system. I had great insurance for the birth of my kids, and gratefully, the passing of my wife. But in the past 10 years, I'm more than happy to come out of pocket for health needs as opposed to paying premiums. Most of the time when I need to go to an emergency room, it worked out just fine with some duct tape and staples. It just seems like legalized extortion.
Everyday I wake up, my biggest battle is with myself. It would be so easy to slip into a comfort zone where I just don't give a damn about the whole world.
You know what really makes me insane? Almost everything I know about what right and wrong I learned from Goofus and Gallant from Highlights. Then it was the Brady Bunch, and Little House on the Prairie, The Dad on Growing Pains, and Heathcliff Huxtable. This is what I try to emulate. This is what I try to attain. I sure don't have the peace that any of those characters have. It's like having to bail out the boat every morning before I can go out with the other fishermen.
It's stupid.
To Anonymous-I know who you are, HAHAHA you're camouflage is awful! But I appreciate your supportive words and sentiments. Thank you
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