Holding off the downward spiral

As the day progressed today I could feel myself continuing to spiral downward. This sucks. It consumes so much energy trying to just maintain. Not to continue the spiral.
I really want to go out dancing, but that environment is not one I need to be in right now. To much potential to make myself feel even worse, regardless how the evening would play out.

My renter did not show up to court, which I kind of expected. I was really hoping she was going to show up and settle up back rent, stay in the house. I am really having a tough time with having to put her out. I should have sold that house after I fixed it up last year. I have to go back down Jan 2nd. I'm hoping she hasn't or won't trash it. But if I didn't have bad luck, I would have no luck, so my expectations aren't to high.

The drive home provided me way to much time in my own head so I took a pit stop in Charlotte and took my 1st mother in law and aunt out to lunch and that was nice. It's been a while since we all got to sit down and just have a nice conversation with out tons of kids running around.

When I finally got home, I immediately logged on to the forum and it sucked all the positive right out of me again. Some of those threads and some of those posters, either **** me off or really depress me. I don't understand why people can't state an opinion and move on. A good debate is fantastic, but trying to browbeat some one into believing what you believe in is pretentious and ridiculous! And others who pontificate and then cry because they didn't get the kind of support they were hoping for. It's like trying to have adult conversations with a bunch of third graders throwing in their two cents. And the collective lumping of all men do this and all women do that. It's just stupid!
It's not everybody. There is a good handful whose posts I could read, reflect, and reply all day long, but sadly it is a small minority. Needless to say, I logged off.

So I made myself get up and go find something to do. On a whim, I picked up a knife and a bar of soap and tried to whittle something. I whittled a bit as a kid. Never tried it with soap. So I figured I would start out easy and whittle out a sheep. After 45 min, I have something that looks like a cross between a pig and a polar bear and only has two legs. HAHAHA Oh well. It was something. I don't foresee going out and buying a bunch soap though. I've got a ton of shavings in a bucket now, and I don't have any practical use for them so it seems pretty wasteful. I did feel a bit better though. My polar pig bear gave me a good laugh.

I decided I would log back on and try to close out one of the drafts I have on here and out of habit stopped by the threads. I am glad I did. I gave some advice to a poster and it in turn created a good opportunity for a family member of hers. I'm glad it worked out. I wanted to tell her that I am vicariously really going to enjoy that date, but thought that it would be a creepy thing to say. I needed the good news. I'm glad it's working out for somebody!

Well, that's about it. Being the glutton for punishment that I am, I'll probably check out the threads. Maybe if they suck I'll go beat the bag.