In search of life!!!!

It seems all my life I have been in search for something. That something, I do not know what it is!! But I know I can not find it standing stationary!! In the last five years I have gotten closer to YHWH. In doing so I started understanding the ways of the world a bit more. Also just meditation to YHWH can lift my sprits!! For about three of those years I have wanted to travel. I have been just to scared too. Yet, lately I have been feeling that God will protect in my voyage, where every it may bring me.

I have come to the conclusion that what I want I can not get from where I am living. I do not really care about all my materialistic things, they do not mean much. Yes, I am thankful for them but in a way I feel selfish. There are so many people that go with out. They don't even have the little I have. The bible says we should not become unevenly yoked. Yet in America that is the way it seems to be. There is no equality. That everyone seems to fight for!!

I have been watching documentary's and reading articles about the amount of people in poverty. Not just people with drug problems and mental issues. But families who were working good jobs and lost them are now living in their car, or in a cheap hotel. Because in a shelter the families are spilt up by gender.

I have came to the conclusion that I want to give it all up and travel with a small pull along RV. Staying in camp sites and other lodging areas. If we don't have money one month for lot rent or to travel to the next town there are always Wal-Mart parking lots. I want to help people realize that the way we live is not how we are suppose to be living.

We continue to give to a government that does not care about us!!! They keep gaining and us lower class continue to struggle. I was told my neighbor hood I just moved to was bad. In reality it is not bad. It is full of a bunch of people that are struggling. Yes, unfortunally in poverty stricken areas crime rate is higher due to the need to survive and your family! But these people are not any different then you in me.

Actually I have found that they look out more for their neighbors. This is the first place I felt safe because I know my neighbors are looking out for me and my family. Lets say you lose your job and your resources run out.... where would you be???? What would you do??? Many people don't even think about that. Because they feel secure with the way their life is. But in truth the government is in power of your job and you can lose it at anytime. When ever they feel budget cuts are needed.

Think about this, if a large amount of people banned together and traveled from place to place but did not buy or rent homes. What would the banks do? All these house that have been foreclosed on are still not rented or re owned. Lets say 100 thousand homeowners walk away from their home and all their items. Now all these home owning companies are going to need us. Not the other way around where we need them!! Now lets say the same amount of people start buying their food from farms and mom and pop stands instead of grocery stores. Eventually the grocery stores will need us!!

In my heart and mind I feel I am making the right move. Also in doing so I can experience the world as a whole. I am 26 and I only know about CT, NY, and FL. I want more out of life. I want true happiness not the stress of trying to pay bills. 90 years ago life was not like this. I don't want to live this way any longer. Come Feb I will start my journey. I may even U tube it. Till then it is planning. Time to start charting all my stops!!