ATTENTION:ARTIST,POETS,MU SICIANS,WRITERS,HOLISTICS &PEOPLE INTO HOMESTEADING
Posted 12-08-2012 at 07:27 AM by ITALIAN GHETTO HILLBILLY
IS ANYBODY OUT THERE INTO ART,POETRY,MUSIC,WRITING,HOLISTICS OR HOMESTEADING IF SO I WOULD LIKE TO HERE FROM YOU.
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You'd be better off taking your inquiry to our main forum pages. Once over there, you will find people who can help you. These blog pages are for journaling only. Thanks.Posted 12-08-2012 at 07:47 AM by case44
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It is truly strange how quickly our lives pass us by. I can remember being a little girl, playing with my Barbie dolls, watching The Little Mermaid everyday, fighting with my sister and enjoying every minute of it. My memory is so clear. I can go back to a certain time and place in my mind and can feel and hear and see the moments that were once present. I remember Being in 8th grade... In the classroom pondering... Thinking soon I'm going to high school and before I know It I'll graduate and become an adult. Then what will I do? Where will my life take me? I was scared then of how my childhood had vanished; and i soon came to find that I was right about everything. I flew through high school and was devastated come graduation. The week of graduation I just cried to myself every night. Replaying my memories of spending time and partying with all my friends. I thought of all the great people I met and spent time with over those four years. I thought of freshman year, going through all the shops, and how much of a struggle it was trying to decide which career to choose at age fourteen. I thought of all the girls in the Health Shop. How we all came together despite our differences. I remember all the girl fights along with the good times. It felt like I was leaving my second family and moving on. Now high school is just another memory in my past. No more parties, no more going to school every morning and seeing all the friendly familiar faces. No more fun and games! *I worked as a Nurses Aid for a few years after high school. My boyfriend followed his trade and worked as an apprentice electrician. We worked and we still went out sometimes and had fun. We took vacations and went snowmobiling in the winter. We went fishing and quading in the summer. We did a lot of arguing and bickering over little nothing's. We had our fair share of drunken arguments and sleepless nights. We were both young and scared of life. Now we've been married for 4 years come this November and we've sure come a long way since then. Mike and I wanted basically the same things in life which was great. But bearing the uncertainty of our future and succeeding our goals always overwhelmed me. What I wanted in life didn't seem up to par with certain peoples expectations of young adults at this day in age.In society, your supposed to go to college and get a degree, following buying a house and getting married. Until you completed those things off society's checklist you weren't ready to be a good parent. Well, before I had realized that everyone else had decided which way my life should go, my only hopes and dreams for adulthood was to find a good husband and become a mother. I never felt good enough for anyone, and I'll admit that at the time I did let other peoples opinions get the best of me. So under the pressure of my parents, I tried the college thing and it wasn't working out. I mean how was I supposed to take classes when I had no idea what I wanted to do? How was I supposed to work full time to pay for my car and insurance and cell phone and still have time to study? How was I supposed to focus in school when I was mentally drained from helping my sick father? Well I knew it then and I know it now, college wasn't and is not for me. So I dropped out second semester, moved into an apartment In Lowell with my boyfriend, and kept on working at the nursing home. We had parties and went out to eat a lot. We went on dates to the movies and all kinds of fun stuff. Then it happened. I got pregnant! I was going to have a baby of my very own. I was going to bring someone into this world who would love me unconditionally. So now your wondering is that why we got married. I definitely think it speeded up the decision, but no that is not why we got married. Mike and I had spoke of marriage long before I got pregnant. Like I said, we both wanted to start a family young. So we were so excited to plan our wedding, though neither of us had any idea what we were doing. Little did we know god had a change of plans in store for us. Two weeks before our wedding we had a miscarriage. I was 3 months pregnant and did not handle it very well. Although my heart was heavy, we still had a nice*wedding. With all our family and friends.. And extended family and friends. Honestly not what I'd do now if I had a second chance. I would of had a more private wedding on a secluded beach or something. But anyway it was nice! By this time we had moved out of our apartment I Lowell and into a very nice duplex in Derry NH. Our best interest was in providing a nice home for our baby. Unfortunately we ended up having our new nice duplex with all the extra space to ourselves.*
I am trying to start a short story. What do you think?Posted 03-12-2013 at 12:23 PM by Mjensenmallahan 
