A certain range of emotions......
Posted 03-12-2012 at 05:12 AM by Pikantari
Tears rolled down my face last night as I dropped my children off with their father. I left him with the kids almost five years ago because he was horrid. The kids came with me and stayed for a couple of years and he was able to afford the luxury of a lawyer and I was not.
Now they have been with him the past few years.
I thank God every day that I am away from him but it is a bit of a dual edged sword, as they have to be with him. I feel guilty for them not being away from him.
We walked into the door last night and he did not say hello to them or that he loved them or missed them. He started yelling at them. He is a control freak and an emotional abuser and this is his method of gaining control back over them in a split second and placing the fear where it left off.
My kids will run from him when they are old enough.....just like he did from his mother.
My son holds in his anger, my daughters rages out.
Such a tearful range of emotions last night as I drove from the somber look into my past to the wonderful life that I now have....... Very hard thing. It felt as thought the tears that when I first left them were angry and sad and probably black and dark purple and as I got closer to home they brightened up.....once I reflected on my life and it made its way to now...
Now they have been with him the past few years.
I thank God every day that I am away from him but it is a bit of a dual edged sword, as they have to be with him. I feel guilty for them not being away from him.
We walked into the door last night and he did not say hello to them or that he loved them or missed them. He started yelling at them. He is a control freak and an emotional abuser and this is his method of gaining control back over them in a split second and placing the fear where it left off.
My kids will run from him when they are old enough.....just like he did from his mother.
My son holds in his anger, my daughters rages out.
Such a tearful range of emotions last night as I drove from the somber look into my past to the wonderful life that I now have....... Very hard thing. It felt as thought the tears that when I first left them were angry and sad and probably black and dark purple and as I got closer to home they brightened up.....once I reflected on my life and it made its way to now...
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Lets hope that they children dont get emotionally scarred from all that over zealous control attitude... Watch them, when they get into an argument with each other and see if the personallity of thier Father is leaking through...
Its easy for our Children to pick up things from either Mom or Dad, not knowingly, and start exibiting the traits that we fear the most, they will put forth.
Anger issues? They will be quick to initiate a fight, and may escalate one to unreasonable levels, to facilitate that thier way is 'right', by oover powering the opponent into submission as your ExHusband is displaying now.
You can alert Social Services about your fears, and they will have to investigate any allegations that are made against your ExHusband.
I pray that you will get over your anger issues with him, and forgive him, eventually.
I wish you well...
JessePosted 03-15-2012 at 02:36 PM by woodworkingmenace
