Flowers on her grave
Posted 02-28-2012 at 04:51 AM by Pikantari
As we lay in the still of the silent darkness he wraps his arms around me and asked if I did ok the day before, and I tell him that I did, and I thank him.
Yesterday would have been my mothers 76th birthday and the day before, we traveled to where I used to live, and where I buried my parents five years apart.
We sat in my old seat on the pew in the church where I was baptized and I was able to see many people I have been missing.
The whole week leading up to yesterday I was in a crazy state. One where the sadness and darkness of the loss of my mother melded with the happiness which is my life today. It was a very confusing time for me. I know my mother would want me to be happy, and I am. It's almost as if I feel guilty at being happy during the time surrounding my parents birth and death days.
On the other hand, it is much better to feel the happiness, and on the day that I placed flowers on their graves, I was able to stand there in happiness, with my sweetie.
This is the first time I have been happy in a long time.....
Yesterday would have been my mothers 76th birthday and the day before, we traveled to where I used to live, and where I buried my parents five years apart.
We sat in my old seat on the pew in the church where I was baptized and I was able to see many people I have been missing.
The whole week leading up to yesterday I was in a crazy state. One where the sadness and darkness of the loss of my mother melded with the happiness which is my life today. It was a very confusing time for me. I know my mother would want me to be happy, and I am. It's almost as if I feel guilty at being happy during the time surrounding my parents birth and death days.
On the other hand, it is much better to feel the happiness, and on the day that I placed flowers on their graves, I was able to stand there in happiness, with my sweetie.
This is the first time I have been happy in a long time.....
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