Stupidity Factor

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OK, soaking in the tub tonight, I reminice over the past few weeks, and was remembering the 'stupidity factor'

Yea, for days, I was virtually feeling little or not pain!! (OK, there is 'discomfort' when I wake up and go for my crutches, but, I grab them fast enough so that I dont have that sharp pain that would bring me to my knees or the floor).

So, its after my Wife cooked her meat loaf, and you 'know' how good anything is the next day

Well, my Wife is out and about, and I get a craving for that meat loaf sandwhich!!
I grab my canes, and head for the fridge, get the meat loaf out and bring it to the counter. I turn my body to get the bread and turn back, and start making the sandwhich (I parked the canes with in reach), and, the discomfort started and continued to escalate, but, I 'want' that sandwhich under any circumstance!

I get it done, then, instead of turning my body to grab my canes, I twist a quarter turn, (thus the Stupidity Factor!!)...
Turn up pain in full... STUPID!! Not quite goiing to the floor, but, I grab those canes quick like! Readjust my body to lessen the pain to just discomfort, (yea, this takes a bit to work out), then, I grab both canes in one hand, grab my sandwhich in the other hand, then reach and grab my canes so Im walking like my usuall Imperial Walker in Star Wars LOL.

After I get to sit on my chair, in front of my computer, Im thinking, "was that worth it???" Then, I take a bite... YOU BETCHA!!!

OK, another thing I was reminicing on, (and this is for you, my kids)...

There was a time, when we joined the Church, Daughter was six and my Son was thirteen, and, when I got baptised, I asked the LORD to take the 'foul mouth' from me.
HE did wonders, and for twelve years, I didnt swear, but three words, until a few days ago.

I was talking about the guy who attacked my Daughter, to my Wife, and I called him a S.O.B. twice, in two sentences in a row!

I saw, by my Wifes body language, that she was visibly shaken... Not hearing me swear for so long, then, all of a sudden, its rolling off my tongue like water... She made like it was nothing and continued talking, but, I knew that our lives had just changed.
Fortunately, you kids werent around when I did that, or, it would have flabbergasted each one of you too, since, I have always tried to get both of you to stop your swearing in my home. (OK, so this is my admission to you, when you both read this someday).

Now, I wont be a hypocrite and ask you 'not' to swear, but, I can still cringe when you do, simply because its unlady like and ungentlemanly like to do so. You were taught better manners than that, yet, when you get with your friends, Son, who go to our Church, they swear more than I would have believed! So, you picked up a bad habit, being with them. I kept telling each one of you, your friends have more influence than we, as your Parents have, even after you have been under our roof for all these years.

In fact my Son, I still remember the day, when you asked your mom, in front of your Sister, when I was going to start swearing again, because you were so used to it, and, by my changing so drastically like that, you really didnt know what to make of me, sheesh!

Well, Im here to say, that I have backslided from the Church, from being out of the Light that the LORD projects to each of those who worship HIM, and I find myself cursing silently when I lose at Hearts on the Computer...

I cant go to our Church, because there are too many stairs for me to climb, and too much pain involved.
Your Mother has told me she wants to go to the Salvation Army Church, because its all one floor, (they build a new Church in Weirton), but, they are 'centrist', and thats the wrong Doctrine for me.

How many Churches I dragged your Mother to, when I was trying to find one, because of my severe Asthma problem, and had to leave, because the wimmin always seemed to 'bathe' in perfume and shut my lungs down! There were a great many, in fact...

Im going to tell your Mom, its time for me to get back into the Church, even though, its not the 'right one' for me, at least I can walk in ther with little pain in my back, and, I know that most of the wimmin in the Salvation Army dont wear perfume!!

When we all got baptised in the Church we attended for years, your Sister refused to get baptised, (and she was only six, and had more sense than we all did), because she and we viewed those films, and realized a Church, 'isnt' a Church, unless it has Elders.
(Yes Luvbug, you were one smart girl at the time, and I didnt see it, but, I acknowledged that you were right).

I even convinced a bunch of guys in the Church to go with me to Eldership Classes, so we could 'be' Elders.

OK, each time I would go to the Classes I would tell your Mother, what I learned, and, then I told her what 'she' was expected to do, if I became one.

When I was almost done, she came to me and flatly told me, "I will NOT be the Wife of an Elder"!! Uhhh, ok. I wish you would have told me that before I spent all those weeks going to classes sheesh!

I told her I couldnt 'be' an Elder anyways.

One of the guys I got to go with me to the classes, had something in his past, (which a lady in the Church kept bringing up to me, saying "He cant be an Elder because of "this in his past".

OK, if 'he' couldnt be an Elder, then, that would disqualify 'me' from being one also!!
Little did she or anyone in the Church know, I have a past also. Though, the LORD may forgive me, it is still there, and that doesnt make me beyond reproach.

No, I didnt attack anyone, break the law or anything that should be put here. But, when it comes close to my Death, I will tell you, my Son, and your Sister about the shadow that reminds me of my sin.

Had we all have gone up before the Church to be confirmed, and the guy got shot down, then I would have stood up and shocked the entire Church with my revelation, and I would have walked off the stage, and left the Church. I would have guaranteed that the Church would have been in shock, for a good many of them, looked up to me, as if I was 'holier than thou.... Im not, Im like any one out there. If they cant take the one guy, then they cant take me also

OK, sleep meds are kicking in now

I wish you well...

Jesse