What if you found out you were dying?
I sorta had such a thought today...and my reaction was interesting...
I found myself kinda of getting angry with God...It was one of those 'God' moments...we all have them...
I felt angry, confused, mad and disappointed...not so much of the idea of dying..but rather circumstances pryor...
I found myself reviewing my life...my steps and mis steps...and asking a lot of 'whys'...
I think each would respond to this scenerio in a different way, depending on what they have accomplished in life...
If you've accomplished a lot, and feel you've made use of all your talents...than your attitude might be different than someone who feels they never got the chance to 'shine'...were never placed around people who recognized their 'talent' and there by lifted them up and created opportunity for them...
I've learned, it's other people who determine where you go in life...
Like tap dancing infront of hogs, verses tap dancing infront of a seasoned talent scout.
You can be as beautiful and glamorious infront of hogs as you want...and they won't appreciate you or your talent...they will just throw mud at you...
Or you can walk into a room with one person, who recognizes talent...and through their connections, can have you sailing high...
It's all about the people you were able to soround yourself around...
It saddens me that so many people in this world, with big dreams and ideas and talent, will never get a chance to fulfill any of it...cause maybe they live in a trailer park...or are married to a man who only wants them for sex and domination and so spends his life putting them down rather than lifting them up...
Or the guy with ideas, but never able to find the capitol (money) to develop those ideas...
To me, the saddest thing about dying is the 'what you could of done if' type of thoughts...
Sometimes you see people of far less talent, who are promoted way ahead of you simply because they 'look this way'...or simply because they were born in this or that household.
Then you find yourself asking 'God, if you knew none of my dreams would get fulfilled, than what was the point of allowing me to be born??'...
'For who's entertainment was it for? Yours or the devils?'
When your alone with your own thoughts...you gotta be careful that you don't get locked in your own mood driven reasoning...for your thoughts can take you places your worst enemy could never...
But I think that sums it up for me, If I really am or found out I was dying my thoughts would be..
'For who's entertainment was it for? Yours or the devils'...
I found myself kinda of getting angry with God...It was one of those 'God' moments...we all have them...
I felt angry, confused, mad and disappointed...not so much of the idea of dying..but rather circumstances pryor...
I found myself reviewing my life...my steps and mis steps...and asking a lot of 'whys'...
I think each would respond to this scenerio in a different way, depending on what they have accomplished in life...
If you've accomplished a lot, and feel you've made use of all your talents...than your attitude might be different than someone who feels they never got the chance to 'shine'...were never placed around people who recognized their 'talent' and there by lifted them up and created opportunity for them...
I've learned, it's other people who determine where you go in life...
Like tap dancing infront of hogs, verses tap dancing infront of a seasoned talent scout.
You can be as beautiful and glamorious infront of hogs as you want...and they won't appreciate you or your talent...they will just throw mud at you...
Or you can walk into a room with one person, who recognizes talent...and through their connections, can have you sailing high...
It's all about the people you were able to soround yourself around...
It saddens me that so many people in this world, with big dreams and ideas and talent, will never get a chance to fulfill any of it...cause maybe they live in a trailer park...or are married to a man who only wants them for sex and domination and so spends his life putting them down rather than lifting them up...
Or the guy with ideas, but never able to find the capitol (money) to develop those ideas...
To me, the saddest thing about dying is the 'what you could of done if' type of thoughts...
Sometimes you see people of far less talent, who are promoted way ahead of you simply because they 'look this way'...or simply because they were born in this or that household.
Then you find yourself asking 'God, if you knew none of my dreams would get fulfilled, than what was the point of allowing me to be born??'...
'For who's entertainment was it for? Yours or the devils?'
When your alone with your own thoughts...you gotta be careful that you don't get locked in your own mood driven reasoning...for your thoughts can take you places your worst enemy could never...
But I think that sums it up for me, If I really am or found out I was dying my thoughts would be..
'For who's entertainment was it for? Yours or the devils'...
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And if you did find out you were dying of a terminal disease...let's say cancer...would you end your own life before hand...or would you allow yourself to physically suffer till the end?
Many have been told since childhood that suicide is a garunteed ticket to 'hell'...
I don't believe that...expecially if your already dying of a terminal illness...
I mean if they can't cure you, and it would cost money you don't have, and your in pain, and gonna die anyways...and if God isn't going to heal you...than what's the point?
Your suppose to just lay there in massive pain, and watch yourself corrode away?
While spending money you don't have on medical bills...
Why would God send you to hell because you took your own life 3 months before you were going to die anyways??
I'm sure some would say 'Cause you never know...God may miraculiously cure you in the end to show his power'...
Man, can really inject fear into the hearts of other men, while pretending to speak for God...
Look how many people die every year from disease and illness...none of their courses are reversed...I'm sure they all held out...but they still died humiliating deaths...
Does that make god happy...for you to lie there in agonizing pain?
Is God in the busness of sending people to 'hell'...or 'saving' people...which one?
Patric Swayze fought a good fight...but he still passed away...As did Paul McCartnize wife...they both had cancer...
As did Sammy Davis Jr...
They all held out till the end...but God did not save them...so what if they had commited suicide ahead of time...?
And why doesn't God prevent teens from commiting suicide?
In the bible...God says 'Anyone who harms a child would be better off if they weren't born'...
Well if that's the case...how come God allows for teens to commit suicide?
Why not have some adult walk by or a friend show up just prior to, to talk them out of??
How could god, who loves kids so much, allow them to commit suicide, without interviening by having someone stop them just in the nick of time??
That's why slogans like 'God is love' are meaningless to me, unless God helps people...
And why can't god act 'independant' of man?
Why can't, won't, God just materialize and stop a person from commiting suicide?
I mean how could love, just stand their and stare, and not do anything to prevent it???
How is that love??
Lot's of questions...wow...but again...I'm trying to reason or understand God from my own limited flawed mind...Posted 11-05-2010 at 09:49 PM by Time and Space
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Would you even care?
I write this for the future, Incase I'm not here....
No one on here would notice anyhow...
If you do die, I wonder how long your stuff stays up until they realize your dead and gone?
Or how many older posts do people read, of someone who has past away, and don't even know it?
If I died, how long would my stuff stay up?
And why would anyone have a reason to suspect I was gone or dead unless someone contacted this place, and why would anyone do that unless I left instructions for them too?
I deleted what I really wanted to say in regards to this blog topic...just sounded to morbid and personal for public reading...
So I'll withhold...
So I guess I write this and post it now, just cause I can...cause it's a sign of life...and the minute I'm gone or dead, I cannot do or express a thing...
So I enjoy it while I'm alive and can...Posted 11-26-2011 at 09:40 PM by Time and Space
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'What if you found out you were dying?'
Well to respond to my own headline...again....I guess we all are dying...10 years from now, how many won't be here?
20 years from now how many on here, won't be here?
40 years from now...and at least 50% of those on here now, will be no more...
And just a short 60 years from now...all on here now, will more than likely be deceased...
It's probably not healthy to think about such things...but sometimes can't help it...just depends on how things are going...
I guess when things are going well...you seldom think about death or dying...cause your to busy living...Posted 12-11-2011 at 08:48 PM by Time and Space
