Could this be Maturity?
Posted 10-14-2010 at 07:12 AM by LookinForMayberry
DH is rushing around the house, swearing at whatever thought is crossing through his mind, trying to pack all his future hopes and aspirations into this moment. Never satisfied to let now unfold its own way. 
I used to be right there with him, struggling to capture MY preconceived moments, railing against the present because it wasn't the present I wanted.
Then we'd get in each others way, and our irritations at our created situations would flare onto each other and we'd fall into a hissin' and spittin' spat that makes two strange cats in a bag sound like a church choir harmony.
I started changing a while back, and wanted him to know we didn't have to do this each time, but he ignored me, not understanding, and that also brought on the spats -- probably worse because I was trying to change him, instead of me.
Somehow, I figured out my error and now I can distance myself from the whole scene. I can back away from the irritation, and just let my now unfold without it being colored by his reactions to his now. I don't know what that means to us, but it's better for me.
Could this be maturity, after 54 years?
I used to be right there with him, struggling to capture MY preconceived moments, railing against the present because it wasn't the present I wanted.
Then we'd get in each others way, and our irritations at our created situations would flare onto each other and we'd fall into a hissin' and spittin' spat that makes two strange cats in a bag sound like a church choir harmony.
I started changing a while back, and wanted him to know we didn't have to do this each time, but he ignored me, not understanding, and that also brought on the spats -- probably worse because I was trying to change him, instead of me.
Somehow, I figured out my error and now I can distance myself from the whole scene. I can back away from the irritation, and just let my now unfold without it being colored by his reactions to his now. I don't know what that means to us, but it's better for me.
Could this be maturity, after 54 years?
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