No more alcohol
Posted 02-11-2010 at 02:05 PM by Time and Space
Hi, well I've stopped drinking...just made the choice to stop, and at the most stressful time...while unemployed and stressed...
But for some reason, as I was driving around in vehicle, I would look out the window at older males, stumbling around, downtown and elsewhere....and I said to myself 'no, I'm not going to end up like that, unemployed and liquered up'...
I'm a fighter...and whatever I must face, I can face it better with a sound, solid, functioning mind. And now I'm glad I quit...cause now drinking is becoming a after thought...not that I never will in the future...like if I'm on a date or something with a lady, and they want to have a glass of wine...then ye, maybe...
But there was a time in my life when I never drank...like 10 years or so...and I was fine without it...
I feel better now actually...alcohol makes your heart swell...which can cause heart murmers...not good....since I stopped drinking...I know longer feel that...and alcohol kills nerve endings and I do believe erodes your joints...
When I drank, I could feel my joints sqeak, like hinges...since I've stopped, all that has deminished or gone away...
I'm in the shape I'm in now, cause I took care of myself years ago...and if I still want to be in good shape 5 years from now, I need to take care of myself now...everyone does, not just me...for without our bodies, who are we...ghosts?
Anyhow, I will limit this blog post to just sobriaty...I'm like almost 2 weeks into it...and still going strong...
Oh, one more thing, don't look for things to get 'better' just cause you stop drinking...infact at first things will feel worse...and don't expect 'god' to bless you with some kind of reward...like money or the lottery...
Nothing will change...if your luck is bad, it will continue to be bad...but at least your health and mind will steadily improove...and you will thank yourself for being strong enough to 'take care of yourself'.
Later...
But for some reason, as I was driving around in vehicle, I would look out the window at older males, stumbling around, downtown and elsewhere....and I said to myself 'no, I'm not going to end up like that, unemployed and liquered up'...
I'm a fighter...and whatever I must face, I can face it better with a sound, solid, functioning mind. And now I'm glad I quit...cause now drinking is becoming a after thought...not that I never will in the future...like if I'm on a date or something with a lady, and they want to have a glass of wine...then ye, maybe...
But there was a time in my life when I never drank...like 10 years or so...and I was fine without it...
I feel better now actually...alcohol makes your heart swell...which can cause heart murmers...not good....since I stopped drinking...I know longer feel that...and alcohol kills nerve endings and I do believe erodes your joints...
When I drank, I could feel my joints sqeak, like hinges...since I've stopped, all that has deminished or gone away...
I'm in the shape I'm in now, cause I took care of myself years ago...and if I still want to be in good shape 5 years from now, I need to take care of myself now...everyone does, not just me...for without our bodies, who are we...ghosts?
Anyhow, I will limit this blog post to just sobriaty...I'm like almost 2 weeks into it...and still going strong...
Oh, one more thing, don't look for things to get 'better' just cause you stop drinking...infact at first things will feel worse...and don't expect 'god' to bless you with some kind of reward...like money or the lottery...
Nothing will change...if your luck is bad, it will continue to be bad...but at least your health and mind will steadily improove...and you will thank yourself for being strong enough to 'take care of yourself'.
Later...
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Funny how I find myself back in this same spot some 21 months later...
Boy how time flys...
I've sinced started consumeing br again...seems harmless enough...but the effects can be gradual and very destructive on your productivity, motivation and responsibilities...
Beer is no less harmful than hard liquor...don't fool yourself...cause you'll just want more and more and more, until you achieve the same effect...
Now when I'm on my job or jobs, and away for weeks at a time, no problem...I'm so occupied that I don't even think of drinking...
it's when I'm at home, or not working...that I fall back into that trap...
A way of hiding from reality I suppose...reality can be very scary...add onto that no one to hang onto, no real friendship, no social group...just alone...
And it's easy to see how alcohol can become your best friend...
But everyone has a 'stop' button in them...self preservation...honor, whatever you want to call it...
But when you cross that line...you have one of the 'moments' with yourself...
And you never know when it will come...you'll have to do something stupid, or a serious of stupid things inorder for it to trigger...
Like miss appointments, or let someone else down ect ect...when it starts effecting others, that's usually when you have a check call with yourself...and say..
'Wait a minute, I know i'm better than this'...
And I had such a moment last night...or early morning...
As hard as things are, are going to be, I certainly don't need alcohol consumption adding to the issues.
I have a good mind, and a healthy body...alcohol consumption can, and will only deminish both...
And competition is to keen to allow that to happen...
It would be nice if we could all have a drill seargent following us around, barking out orders, preventing us from making dumb decisions...but most don't...
And thus there comes that time where you have to become that drill seargent to yourself...Posted 11-16-2011 at 07:52 PM by Time and Space
