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This blog is where I express myself to the world or at least to those who might stop by to read what I post 
. Maybe God will use what I post (I am a Christian and this blog will have a most decidedly Christian bent to it) to good effect in the lives of my readers.
I may turn some of my posts into a book. I may cease blogging here altogether. Who knows. But for now..I am content to post away in this, my own little corner of the world.
Rather than reading through my now lengthy list of posts you may wish to read what I consider to be my very best posts or you can just read the posts that deal with a single subject category that might interest you.
Please know that I am open to any input on any topic I write about. If you have something to say about anything you see written here please....feel free to speak up in the form of leaving a comment or sending me a PM (private message).
And if you are in San Diego and wish to meet the one and only Carlos (that's me)...drop me a private message. I always enjoy meeting one of my readers!
Thanks.
Carlos
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. Maybe God will use what I post (I am a Christian and this blog will have a most decidedly Christian bent to it) to good effect in the lives of my readers. I may turn some of my posts into a book. I may cease blogging here altogether. Who knows. But for now..I am content to post away in this, my own little corner of the world.
Rather than reading through my now lengthy list of posts you may wish to read what I consider to be my very best posts or you can just read the posts that deal with a single subject category that might interest you.
Please know that I am open to any input on any topic I write about. If you have something to say about anything you see written here please....feel free to speak up in the form of leaving a comment or sending me a PM (private message).
And if you are in San Diego and wish to meet the one and only Carlos (that's me
)...drop me a private message. I always enjoy meeting one of my readers!Thanks.
Carlos
PS. If you want to follow my blog such that you will get an email when I write new posts you can subscribe to my blog.
Sometimes it helps to look back and see God's provision in our past!
Posted 10-13-2009 at 02:59 PM by carlos123
One thing that runs in my family a lot...well maybe in me more than anyone else since I am the oldest, from my mother, is the tendency to worry about things that may never happen.
I will sometimes get all in a tizzy with concern about things that are really silly to worry about when what I worry about may ultimately not even come close to happening.
Increasing the level of stress on myself. Self-imposed and needless stress. My mother is that way a lot. She will worry herself sick at times over things that she need not worry about.
I have that tendency in my own life.
Yesterday for example my landlord expressed some frustrations he was feeling to me that were almost entirely due to faulty assumptions on his part. He is a great guy but like us all he has his weaknesses. One of those is not expressing something he is frustrated about until it gets to the boiling point.
We worked through it and are just fine with our continuing arrangement.
But...in line with my worry tendencies I began to concern myself will all kinds of what ifs.
What if I end up not being able to continue here (my landlord made it clear to me that in no way is he wanting me to leave but...never mind what he said...it's the concern about what if that kills me)?
What if he is ultimately not satisfied with the work I do for him (never mind that he goes out of his way to make sure that I am happy so that I remain here providing him with incredibly value)?
What if my internet business goes nowhere and flops (never mind that many others ahead of me have succeeded in the same thing and that there is every reason to believe that with God's help I too will succeed)?
What if I end up homeless and in the streets with no computer access (never mind that this has NEVER happened to me before)?
What if the sky falls on me, and a pack of coyetes attacks me, and I encounter a rattle snake, and my eyes fail me due to staring at a computer screen for 15 hours a day, and I go blind, and my knees blow up again, and my mother dies, and no one wants to hire me anymore, and Israel attacks Iran, and...let's see...I get cancer?
Oh my...what am I to do? Worry, worry, worry! And more worry! It's a wonder that I sometimes don't just fall over and faint from needless and silly worry!!
This morning as I took a morning walk around the neighborhood I got before the Lord and on the basis of the following verses began to talk things out with Him in His presence...
As I brought my concerns before the Lord, His Spirit within me began to direct my thoughts to how God has previously provided for me in my life and this greatly helped me to calm down and take things in stride.
When I was living in my truck up north in Canada and my truck broke completely down such that I couldn't go anywhere easily and in the middle of a bitter cold winter where I could not sleep well at night because of the cold...the Lord provided for me through a friend who offered to let me sleep on the floor at his place! Where I paid him half his rent for doing so (something I offered on my own initiative and that he had not been expecting me to do).
When I had no money coming in due to my truck being broken down...wondering how I was going to survive...the Lord provided for me by having the insurance company of a guy who had hit me a couple of months prior pay me out for my truck! I got $1000 cash!
When I did not know where I was going to go or what was going to become of my future, only knowing that I could not really stay where I was as my friends place was disgustingly dirty and we had mice crawling over us at night...the Lord provided a way for me to come to San Diego. A place to stay in San Diego, a ride from the airport, luggage, a cheap flight, the works!
On numerous occasions while down here when I started to run out of food...you know the number by now...the LORD once again came through for me and granted me great favor in the eyes of others such that at times people stopped by to give me bags of food when I had not even asked for it!!
When it seemed for sure that I was going to become homeless and end up living on the streets of San Diego like a bum...the Lord provided once again by having someone lend me $250 once (I have not forgotten this debt if you are reading this and as God is my witness if it is the last thing I do in life I will pay every penny back) and another time someone who I hardly knew just up and decided to pay my rent (when I had my suitcases outside my trailer ready to be picked up by a friend within an hour)!!
When my knees blew up such that I could not even hardly get up to go to the bathroom or even hardly sit on the toilet due to the pain the Lord provided me with some crutches and more food (since I could not walk to the store to get my own).
My computer screen absolutely broke down on me once such that I could no longer use it at all and...as usual...within a matter of hours the Lord had provided me with a huge computer screen to use lent to me by a friend.
When my internet connection became real flaky through no fault of my own seeing that I was too far away from the house that my trailer was parked next to...to pick it up consistently...the Lord provided me with the gift of a satellite dish to enable me to get excellent reception.
When I ran out of money to continue paying rent in the trailer I was in..the Lord not only provided me a car to sleep in for the one night I had no place to go but moved me into a much better place (the one I am in now)!! Without my putting up one red cent!!!
On and on and on and on. The Lord has provided me every day, every step of the way! Day in and day out.
What more could be said? He has provided me with emotional support when I have needed it...though man has failed me. He has provided me with money over and over and over again when I have been down to pennies to my name. He has provided food and clothing, water for showers, medicine for pain, medical care, has granted me favor in the eyes of countless individuals (most all of whom I never asked anything from at all...that's just not me).
He has been my stronghold, my rock, my comforter, my shield, my hope, my companion, my king, my god, my provider, my inspiration, my example, my protector...an ever present help in time of need!
He corrects me when I am wrong, touches my heart with His love when I feel alone and forsaken, reminds me of His Presence when I get caught up in the affairs of everyday life and begin to forget Him.
He gives me purpose in life. His will is the best thing for me.
And as if the above was not enough...He has saved me through the blood of Jesus Christ and has forgiven me of all my sins!!!
And me? I am sitting here wondering if I will end up in the streets, blind, crippled, and concerned about whether a pack of coyotes will eat me for supper????!!!!
Insane!
Blessed be the Lord my God who provides for me in all my needs and strengthens my hands for life!
I am but a flub. A worm. A never ending trophy of His grace poured out on someone like me. I continually stray in my heart from devotion to Him alone. I continually question and doubt and fret before Him.
But He loves me still!
What a wondrous and wonderful God I serve!
He will continue to provide for me and though I may in the future walk through the valley of the shadow of death, like King David of old, I will fear no evil for GOD is with me!
Carlos
I will sometimes get all in a tizzy with concern about things that are really silly to worry about when what I worry about may ultimately not even come close to happening.
Increasing the level of stress on myself. Self-imposed and needless stress. My mother is that way a lot. She will worry herself sick at times over things that she need not worry about.
I have that tendency in my own life.
Yesterday for example my landlord expressed some frustrations he was feeling to me that were almost entirely due to faulty assumptions on his part. He is a great guy but like us all he has his weaknesses. One of those is not expressing something he is frustrated about until it gets to the boiling point.
We worked through it and are just fine with our continuing arrangement.
But...in line with my worry tendencies I began to concern myself will all kinds of what ifs.
What if I end up not being able to continue here (my landlord made it clear to me that in no way is he wanting me to leave but...never mind what he said...it's the concern about what if that kills me)?
What if he is ultimately not satisfied with the work I do for him (never mind that he goes out of his way to make sure that I am happy so that I remain here providing him with incredibly value)?
What if my internet business goes nowhere and flops (never mind that many others ahead of me have succeeded in the same thing and that there is every reason to believe that with God's help I too will succeed)?
What if I end up homeless and in the streets with no computer access (never mind that this has NEVER happened to me before)?
What if the sky falls on me, and a pack of coyetes attacks me, and I encounter a rattle snake, and my eyes fail me due to staring at a computer screen for 15 hours a day, and I go blind, and my knees blow up again, and my mother dies, and no one wants to hire me anymore, and Israel attacks Iran, and...let's see...I get cancer?
Oh my...what am I to do? Worry, worry, worry! And more worry! It's a wonder that I sometimes don't just fall over and faint from needless and silly worry!!
This morning as I took a morning walk around the neighborhood I got before the Lord and on the basis of the following verses began to talk things out with Him in His presence...
Quote:
Philippians 4:6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
When I was living in my truck up north in Canada and my truck broke completely down such that I couldn't go anywhere easily and in the middle of a bitter cold winter where I could not sleep well at night because of the cold...the Lord provided for me through a friend who offered to let me sleep on the floor at his place! Where I paid him half his rent for doing so (something I offered on my own initiative and that he had not been expecting me to do).
When I had no money coming in due to my truck being broken down...wondering how I was going to survive...the Lord provided for me by having the insurance company of a guy who had hit me a couple of months prior pay me out for my truck! I got $1000 cash!
When I did not know where I was going to go or what was going to become of my future, only knowing that I could not really stay where I was as my friends place was disgustingly dirty and we had mice crawling over us at night...the Lord provided a way for me to come to San Diego. A place to stay in San Diego, a ride from the airport, luggage, a cheap flight, the works!
On numerous occasions while down here when I started to run out of food...you know the number by now...the LORD once again came through for me and granted me great favor in the eyes of others such that at times people stopped by to give me bags of food when I had not even asked for it!!
When it seemed for sure that I was going to become homeless and end up living on the streets of San Diego like a bum...the Lord provided once again by having someone lend me $250 once (I have not forgotten this debt if you are reading this and as God is my witness if it is the last thing I do in life I will pay every penny back) and another time someone who I hardly knew just up and decided to pay my rent (when I had my suitcases outside my trailer ready to be picked up by a friend within an hour)!!
When my knees blew up such that I could not even hardly get up to go to the bathroom or even hardly sit on the toilet due to the pain the Lord provided me with some crutches and more food (since I could not walk to the store to get my own).
My computer screen absolutely broke down on me once such that I could no longer use it at all and...as usual...within a matter of hours the Lord had provided me with a huge computer screen to use lent to me by a friend.
When my internet connection became real flaky through no fault of my own seeing that I was too far away from the house that my trailer was parked next to...to pick it up consistently...the Lord provided me with the gift of a satellite dish to enable me to get excellent reception.
When I ran out of money to continue paying rent in the trailer I was in..the Lord not only provided me a car to sleep in for the one night I had no place to go but moved me into a much better place (the one I am in now)!! Without my putting up one red cent!!!
On and on and on and on. The Lord has provided me every day, every step of the way! Day in and day out.
What more could be said? He has provided me with emotional support when I have needed it...though man has failed me. He has provided me with money over and over and over again when I have been down to pennies to my name. He has provided food and clothing, water for showers, medicine for pain, medical care, has granted me favor in the eyes of countless individuals (most all of whom I never asked anything from at all...that's just not me).
He has been my stronghold, my rock, my comforter, my shield, my hope, my companion, my king, my god, my provider, my inspiration, my example, my protector...an ever present help in time of need!
He corrects me when I am wrong, touches my heart with His love when I feel alone and forsaken, reminds me of His Presence when I get caught up in the affairs of everyday life and begin to forget Him.
He gives me purpose in life. His will is the best thing for me.
And as if the above was not enough...He has saved me through the blood of Jesus Christ and has forgiven me of all my sins!!!
And me? I am sitting here wondering if I will end up in the streets, blind, crippled, and concerned about whether a pack of coyotes will eat me for supper????!!!!
Insane!
Blessed be the Lord my God who provides for me in all my needs and strengthens my hands for life!
I am but a flub. A worm. A never ending trophy of His grace poured out on someone like me. I continually stray in my heart from devotion to Him alone. I continually question and doubt and fret before Him.
But He loves me still!
What a wondrous and wonderful God I serve!
He will continue to provide for me and though I may in the future walk through the valley of the shadow of death, like King David of old, I will fear no evil for GOD is with me!
Carlos
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