As I walk to my jeep the clock strikes twelve. I can hear the church bells chime just down the road. The air is crisp and cool on my skin as I have no jacket on and my hair blows this way and that.

I look above me and there is not a cloud in the sky, just total blue as far as the eye can see. I can still feel the pain of the needle from two days ago as I climb in and my boot rubs my leg.

I think back to last night when we chatted. A video chat. I could see him...

As I lay here in bed I can hear the rain fall heavily on my window. It feels like I am in a dream. In my mind I wonder if I am awake or asleep and realize that I am neither, but a little of both.

I am in that place between awake and asleep. My hands are warm as they roll across my chest which is very cool to the touch and my senses waken.

Touch. Sound. Sight. I open my eyes and wonder what time it is looking to the ceiling. At his house that is where the time...

I was just talking to a friend about him. About what is going on and how I am hurting.

This person knows him, but even more, knows his two best friends. They don't understand it either...

I told her I was not looking for him. I will be 38 tomorrow and am at an age where I should already be settled in life, the way I feel when I am with him.

I told her I knew he was the one. I said he is sweeter than any other man or person I have ever known and that...

The water from the road splashes up on my windshield as the cars around me weave in and out of traffic. Navigating our Nations Capitols' beltway is not the funnest of tasks, most assuredly. Through the movement of my wipers the rain falls upon my windshield and all I can see are the dark clouds ahead.

It never fails. When I leave him, there is always bad weather. When I go to him the weather is always so very wonderful. Is this a sign? Is someone trying to tell me something?...

He came home tonight and dinner was ready. I sat here in the living room with just a lamp on, no tv. I was answering an e mail.

I never hear him come into the house, he is like a stealth ninja!

After he changed his clothes we sat together looking at some things on my laptop and I was getting a little hungry. We normally eat as soon as he gets home but not today.

I asked if he wasn't hungry and he said no, that he was hungry. I told him I was going...