Pls i need to know if there's anyone out there? i'm lost...so lost. i though i had it together but now i dont. so pls here my story. i quited my job about nearly 2 yrs now. i couldnt stand the job that i was in.. Mortgage that is! i hated it and got so burned out, so i planed for 8 mos before i quited -and YEP before it all went down hill. i felt like i needed to get out, i was missing something in life. i went travelling and hoping to find that missing piece.. went to many places then got stuck in Australia. where i had the most fun, amazing times. i met my x-boy friend. he's an aussie. what can i say it didnt work out. even thou i wanted to work out. i love australia.. i felt like i had a life there.. but i couldt get them to sponsor me because i dont have a degree. although, i had many years of experiences.

my aussie x-boyfriend didnt do any thing to help me to stay neither. not what i expected him to. but he made me feel like it was just him and i. i've lost all my connection and friends.. because i felt like i had to hang out with him. cuz he'd never live my side. relationship issues.. maybe i had a problem with that. i wasnt strong enough.

anyhow, my visa was about to expire. i feel like i need to get my degree..so then i decided to come back and figure out what i want to do for my future. but its so hard going back to college now. and going back full time.. economy is so bad. i'm now living with my x step dad and little sister. dont even have my own place. and still couldnt find a part time job. im stressing out. i've just got back from Australia for 4 wks. i'm goin into depression and trying my best to focus. so far i dont even know why im doing this anymore. i was once a driven and determine. i've now lost my self. i felt like im falling apart..a big falier. im just holding on to a string.. and so ready to break. i think maybe i need to get out of here.