Why do I still work?

Because for most of my life i ****ed up and failed
to save money...make money...spent too much on gambling and buying records.

I really can't blame myself totally...came from relatively low middle class,parents had third grade education...not a whole lot of family to get good role models/connections from...severe issues with self-confidence,self-steem,ashamed of what I looked like for most of my life.;thus no relationships whatsover...no...