It's been a great past few days. I've been enjoying my time spent with friends and family. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I've been discovering so many things about myself and what I really want out of life. I've been enjoying my husband, too. I've stopped trying to make him into the freaky sex machine I thought I wanted and started just enjoying what we do so well together. He's considerate, has amazing stamina, and is concerned about my experience more than his. I'd say that's pretty...

After this whole thing finally imploded, I'm actually happy. I can go a day without thinking about OG. I can be myself again. I can sleep without anxiety over if he'll message me that day. It's a relief. I truly only wish him the best because I can't deny I don't care for him. It feels good to let go. I think my husband can tell a difference too. I'm happier and he's seems more responsive to me. I'm not going to declare things all rainbows and butterflies just yet, but I'm optimistic.

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OG dropped the biggest anvil on my head today. He said he's backing away to "focus on my family." Whatever the **** that means. I didn't think I was taking time away from his family seeing as how he is a 12 hour drive away from me. He comes on so strong, tells me things he said he hasn't told anyone else, talks about very intimate things, gets me to try things sexually I would have never considered before meeting him, sends me pictures, I send him pictures, we seem to be connecting and...

So OG and I had a long and much needed talk. I was terrified that it would result in a complete cessation to our communication. But I needed to apologize to him and let him know I recognized my behavior towards him has been inappropriate. And I knew I was going to cry. He has never heard me cry and I was worried he would be uncomfortable and shut down. My husband shuts down when I cry and he often gets angry because my crying frustrates him.

OG was incredible. He said I didn't...