I knew better than to answer the phone to you today. This was a huge **** storm, with you saying you want me to visit you in new apt and build a new future together, to text yelling that I am prison raping you for wanting my half of the 401K, to begging me to please stop hurting you by wanting a lawyer, all while telling me you would dump her if I or JC wanted or needed you to, then back to spewing insults at me, and all this started with you waking me up in the morning by crawling into bed with...

I will never understand how half our lives end in this kind of way. Today you called and asked over and over for me to meet you for lunch, just as you did yesterday. You said you wanted to start something new and had texted me about getting your apt approved, and hoped I would visit you there. saying you want to be alone for awhile and finish this divorce so all your resentment can be buried, but then you thought maybe there would be a new future for us together. It was all your fake nice talk...

How in the world can we see the same conversation, or the same actions so completely differently? If anything was to blame for this sad wasted 20 years, it would be this in my opinion. Communication. I can't seem to figure it out for the life of me. I say back, you hear forward. I say heavy, you hear light. I trusted that you would never take my son, you are taking him for half the time. You say You love me, all I see and feel is complete hatred and/or disregard. When I cry, it's annoying,...

Yesterday we emailed a lot back n forth, but mostly it was painful to read. I did start one pretty angry bcuz of jacobey's grades and anger. It was and is so hard to read your responses, which rarely have anything in ways of my questions or sbjcts. That is how all my communications have felt with you throughout our marriage tho, and I don't know why I still get so hurt that my words, no matter what they are, feel unheard by you. Jacobey does this too. It's as if the moment i open my mouth,...

Today was extra hard. Jacobey asked me to go to church with him today. He asked on Friday and I shined him on, but then again on Saturday. I didn't want to go even a little bit. I have told 3 people in the last 6 weeks that I could go to church anywhere, but I needed to keep Connected a somewhat safe place for you and Jacobey. I feel that is so important for him, especially right now. I also want you to have a place where you have people you consider friends, and that aren't interacting with...